also turns out my girlfriend really was cheating on me, we kinda hated each other for a day then got back together, it happens everytime, she was playing with my emotions and treated me like a toy, now that we're back together and this is her last chance, she's at my mercy, if she loses this chance, i won't give her another til she comes back to me, begging for another chance, maybe i'll give her another chance, i'm pretty forgiving, but my heart is very fragile