You gotta love life when you feel that everyone hates you and you always feel like you could go to sleep and make everyone happier by not waking up. And I'm not one of those fake people who are just suicidal for attention, I just don't like my life because nothing is ever going my way. I don't like doing anything anymore, and my friends are leaving me all the time, and I just feel like I'm drifting further and further away from my usual self. And before you all go thinking it's just me having a bad day or something, this has been something progressive thing. And when I find someone I want to trust and give my heart to, it never works out and I retreat further into myself. I just need to find myself someone who will accept me and love me, or I think I will end up being a heartless nobody that finds people harder to trust, because I already have trust issues. I just want to be happy