I've lately been overworking myself with school, writing, trying to make people happy, and many other things. One thing I forgot to look at and see is how I was doing, how I was feeling, what my mental state was, and it's scary. Seeing how fast one can collapse in the hands of others. I'm trying to take days off but when I try to, I just break down. I'm almost falling asleep during all of my classes, I have to walk around campus all day, and not to mention the amount of homework my teachers assign. Yes it's tiring. Yes im a mess. But I push myself through all calls, all texts, but mostly it's all interaction. I push myself so much to the point where I can't eat. All foods have been making me sick. For example meat and milk have given me horrible stomach aches and making me want to curl up in a ball and just die. I'm tired of it all. I just want all the pain to go away. It's currently 00:06 am and I'm feeling really bad and my socal skills have gone out of the window I guess. I've been in horrible shape, and so worn out, my body won't let me fall asleep so that's gonna be fun, so yeah. I have so much stress falling on me right now it feels like weights on my shoulders, pushing me down into buring hot lava. I've been doing a bunch of sports and settled on volleyball as the libero (for my school team). Music really helps me when I don't know who to talk to about things. Yeah Adalyn is gonna be there for me no matter what and I know that, but I'm scared that I'm putting my struggles on her.
Well yeah, I guess that's all I'm gonna say because I don't want to be waisting your time, cya.