I bought some cosplwy stuff, and it was just the smaller stuff plus the wig that came today, but the feeling of the cosplqy so far made me feel confident and good about myself.
I'm cosplaying Jirou. I walked around my house and my siblings loved in, and my parents thought the hair suited me and for the first time in awhile I felt like myself.
It was like all my body issues went away for a couple hours. I loved the wig I got and how it made me feel. I have longer hair and the longer my hair is the worse I feel, but with the wig I felt so much better. I had the chocker on and headphones. I just felt like I was on air. I was crying for a bit.
It felt like a gender euphoria moment even though I'm biologically female and jirou is a female charecter. I've never been confident about being female and sometimes it makes me feel sick when I remember I'm female, but putting on the wig and pretending to be jirou for a bit made me like being a female for a bit.
I also now have TicTok.