Basically self note using wattpad as diary, I really want to go back. Not just cglre but full childhood somehow time travel and send it so I was my old self and I could stay in one part of my life and at the end of school year I choose whether to keep state as that year or move to another one or maybe term instead and the prospect of future is daunting I just need to at least to be able to stay in the now on repeat so not day or what I am learning but friends and timetable and all that. With still holidays at normal intervals and my personality and habits don't change
