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went awol for a week and lost 3 followers. God, its brutal out here

so im thinking i should probably engage with my readers more, so this is me engaging. So where are ya'll from? Thats not sus at all. Nvm, how's your day been so far? There! thats less axe-murdery-in-the-forest vibe.

I just went from 22 followers to 100 on twitter overnight after logging in after like a year CRAZYY

ladies and gents we have hit our 100 reads mark and i just wanna thank the readers who made it possible. cant believe any of you actually stick around for my shit. but im glad for it nonetheless. it means alot.

i was about to give up on this whole diary thing but then i came back online today and the reads had spiked. and this one person i had reached out to and "discreetly" left the link of my story in their messages actually read it. and commented and replied to my mesg saying such nice and supportive things. the past week was a fucking trial to say the least. but their words remind me that htere are people, good people, who care. And if they're reading this rn. i couldnt be more greatful. so fasten ur seatbelt folks, youre gettin another shit-filled entry comin your way!

latest entry "being oppressed" is out. at this point i dont even fucking care if anyone reads it or not. i started this diary to have people see and hear my side of the story and maybe my shit would be a little less of a burden for me alone. but i just dont give a fuck anymore. death would be better than this pathetic excuse of  this life

Love. A pathetic word. i loathe it at this point. i hate my parents for not having love for each other. i hate them for not teaching me how to love. i hate them for giving it to me with an open hand and then turning it into an impenetrable fist. i hate them for only showing me material love, with no words to ever account for an apology after a fight. for breaking me over and over until i decided to stay down and play dead. slowly biding my time. 
          
          New fucking entry "Dear Mom and Dad" is out. enjoy my suffering.

New entries: "European 50 Shades of grey" and "Sexting and Fe-Roaches" is out.
          Next coming soon.

We've got our first two followers @WhiteSilverMoon and @blackandburned! Thanks for the follow i really appreciate it!