Parker

I keep redownloading this stupid thing. Why won't I let it die? Hell if I know!

>:3 hewwo

I don't feel mentally well anymore. I feel like a broken record. 

I don’t know why I haven’t killed myself yet. I just can’t get happy. Literally the only thing that makes me happy is watching the number on the scale drop. I’m praying to pass out and go to the hospital for it eventually. Maybe then they could see that I’m dying. 

I’m going to snap. I’m going to snap. I’m going to snap. I’m going to snap. 

I just won the fucking lottery. 

I’m scared as hell. I can’t stop hearing my mom scream all the time. Nonstop. I can’t even tell when it’s time or the real thing anymore. God, how do I keep this up. 

How am I supposed to survive this? I feel so empty and lost. 

Being casually suicidal means petting spiders and hoping to die. At least they are kinda cute. They feel hella weird though. 

It's your boy, umm..., suicidal tendencies.