AnqelOfDeath14

Okay I need help.My little sisters stayed at their best friends place last night and my mum and I went to pick them up this evening.So we get to the gate and my mum beeps her horn so someone can open it(it’s an electric gate) and my sisters best friends older brother Issac comes out to push the button or something.With no shirt on.And I was like “Bloody hell how have I never noticed how ripped he is?”. I couldn’t stop staring.Anyway my mum drove in and he disappeared.Mum and I went inside to see his mum who is one of my mums good friends.We sat and chatted for about 20 mins and then he came in,with a shirt on this time.He sat down next to me and we talked for a bit and I had my little brother on my lap and Issac was playing with him and feeding him stuff it was so cute.Then something embarrassing happened.I noticed my nose was running and I reached up with hand to wipe it so I could get some tissue and then I noticed blood on my hand.I was having a nosebleed.It was really muggy today and I get nosebleeds when Im hot sometimes.I got up and rushed to the car to get my brothers baby wipes and sort myself out.I was sat in the car for about 10 minutes and It hadn’t stopped when my sister came out and asked what I was doing.I told her and she went back inside to tell mum.Mum came out to me a minute later and gave me some tissue and asked if I was okay.Then Issac came out with a bottle of his aftershave and said it would help stop the bleeding.I was doubtful but he said it had helped him before so I sprayed it up my nose a couple times.He was really sweet about it and helped me clean myself up.Then he made a comment about me smelling of his aftershave and how my dad would smell it on me when I got home and think I had been out with a boy all day.It was funny.After that we talked a little longer and then I left.And I can’t stop thinking about him.I can still smell his aftershave on me.I haven’t been like this in years.

I think I have some kind of a mental disorder.I was arguing with my sister cause she wouldn’t turn out the light and when she wouldn’t get up to do it I went over and hit her before turning the light out myself.Then she got out of bed and hit me and I hit her back and we ended up in a full fist fight.Then we ended up on the bed sort of wrestling and then I just started laughing.I stopped fighting with her and started laughing and I’ve no idea why.Then I stopped laughing told her I hate her and got up off her bed and walked over to my own where I proceeded to smile to myself while drinking my mock-tail.That was a few minutes ago and I’m still not sure what happened and if I liked it or not.Any advice?

Ok I’m actually gonna hurt someone this morning.Its been terrible.First My mother woke me up at 8:30 for Absolutely no reason and when I tried to go back to sleep she wouldn’t leave me alone.So I got up and put on my usual Saturday morning programme (James Martin’s Saturday morning) and then my mother switched it to some other stupid programme.Then when I made breakfast she interrupted again by making me make hers to.My plan this morning was to clean up the place and then have a late shower.But no I had to get dressed before I could shower so I could run to the shop cause she was craving orange juice.Then while I was walking to the shop these little kids who were out on the road starting annoying me.My sister went to ask her friend if she wanted to come to the shop and i shouted from Down the road that I was gonna wait in the park.The little boys mocked me and it took all my bloody willpower to not rip their heads off.I managed a piss off and kept walking trying to stop myself from stapling their tongues to their chins.So yeah now I’m on one and of someone says the wrong thing to me today then god better help them.

Hey peeps I’m sorry I haven’t been active lately.Nothings happening everything’s been fine.I mean my parents still seem to be a fight and won’t sleep in the same bloody bed but i don’t really care.Ive been binging the vampire diaries and I am so hooked.I ship Caroline with just about everyone She dates or crushes on and I now have a bit of a crush on Enzo. I still love Damon though.I’m currently on season 6.I am slowly starting to crawl my way out of my anti social burrow I’ve been hiding in for the last 4 months as well.I was thinking of going out but I think I need to take things a little slower and get my fabulousness back first.My eyebrows are in desperate need of threading.Anyway what’s what?

My parents are fighting again.I walked in on them arguing this morning and then my dad just got into his van and drove off and didn’t come home all day.Hes back now but he’s sleeping in my old bedroom cause he won’t sleep in the same bed as my mum.Life sucks when your parents never seem to get along.

Okay I’m feeling really good peeps.Yesterday was a day from heaven.I thought it was just gonna be a crappy day where I would have to clean out my caravan and everything would be horrible.But it wasn’t.My aunties asked me to go a designer shop outlet village with them and off I went,leaving my mother to clean my caravan for me.At the designer outlet I bought pink and white Karl Lagerfeld shoes with the matching jumper and T-shirt and some juicy couture leggings with a matching t-shirt that goes with some pink juicy couture high tops I already had.We couldn’t get into shops like Dior,Gucci or Louboutin cause the queues were hours long.After we left the outlet we went into London and ended up in Knightsbridge where Harrods is.We walked down Sloane Street while we were there but I didn’t get anything there.Then we went to harrods where we went to the shoe heaven floor.We got into the Louboutin shop there and I saw a beautiful pair of heels.They were nude,with a round toe,small pump and a 100mm heel.Simple and classy.However they also had the same pair but in black.So i was torn between the two colours.Then the shop assistant told me that Both pairs of shoes were reduced to £375 each pair! That’s really cheap for the kind of shoes they were.That was a really rare find.So I thought “Screw it” and bought myself both the nude and the black.So I now had two pairs of Louboutins.Then we went downstairs where all the Harrods brand stuff is and I bought some nice chocolates with fudge pieces in it.Then we went to the food but and I loved watching how they make all the cakes and the coffee and things like that.Not long after that we went home and as soon as I walked in the door my dad handed me the box to my new iPhone 7s.In pink.So yesterday was a god send and exactly the kind of thing I need to get out of this ridiculous depression I’m in and start being my fabulous self again.I’m very happy for the first time in 3 months.

Right so basically my phone broke last night and I was phone less for the day today.I didn’t really mind.Im currently using my mums old iPhone 6 she had before she upgraded to sn iPhone X.Ive put my phone chip into it so my number is on here but that’s it.Its just temporary until my dad gets me a new phone.You might not see much of me for the next few days.

I had an interesting conversation with my grandmother today about ambition and marriage.Marriage is a touchy subject with me.I say I want to do all these things and go all these places and she says that when she was young she never had ambition like I do she was just happy with what she had.Thats not me.I'm grateful for what I have but far from happy with it.She said that she's never had ambition her whole life and she's perfectly happy with everything about her life.I said that I don't want to marry young like my mum did,she married at 19 and had me just over a year later at 20.I feel like if I get married at 19 then I haven't even had a chance to live my life and I'm already committing myself to a man.So she said what if you meet someone who's so in love with you and your in love with him and he wants to marry young.So I said he can either wait for me or leave me.I have lots of plans for the future and a hell of a lot of ambition.Im not happy with my life at the minute.Not enough adventure or excitement.But my grandmother says that I have too much ambition and I don't know what's gonna happen.The way I see it though is that if you don't have ambition and just settle with what you have then you'll never know what you could have been or what you could have done.I think having the amount of ambition I have can't be anything less than good. What do you think cause this is a really big debate between my grandmother and I. 

One grandmother comes to visit and brings me haribos.I walk down the road to see my other grandmother and she gives me Percy piglets.I now have a stash of sweets.So I am gonna finish tidying my caravan while playing Bon Jovi songs very loud and then I'm gonna shower and watch vampire diaries with either my haribos or my piglets.Honesty all I need now is a fruit shoot.

Okay I've emptied my wardrobe and it's rather ridiculous.I have 6 skirts,6 shirts with puffy sleeves and 8 jackets.What the hell? I have a thin black casual jacket,a Khaki green jacket with pink flowers on it,a grey white and red letterman jacket,a black leather jacket,a blue denim jacket,a black jacket with gold and white trimming That's goes with a skirt I have,a white blazer with shoulder pads and another jacket that's in like the style of a leather jacket but it's black and white tweed with little silver sparkles in it.What is the need for so many jackets and puffy sleeve shirts? I think I have an obsession that I didn't know about.