For the past few months, I've sensed that I'm no longer hyperfixated with Balan Wonderworld. I'm seeing less fan content on my Tumblr and Twitter feed and there aren't any more NSFW Balan fics popping up on Wattpad and AO3, resulting in my lack of inspiration and motivation to gather ideas for the next chapters. Not to mention that I went through a couple of unpleasant experiences in the fandom.
I feel like no matter how hard I worked on my fanfiction and how many websites I published it, it's not going to get a lot of attention because of the reputation the game has received. Depression came crawling back, along with other mental health issues, which furthered my demotivation.
As much as I really hate saying this, it is with deep regret to have to tell you that I'm no longer going to continue writing my Balan fanfiction, Journeys with Balan. It's a difficult but necessary decision to make and I'm truly sorry that I let down the people who supported the story and who waited for a long time for the supposedly next chapters.
