I don't know you, and I probably never will, but i have to say this: Wait. Don't comkit suicide, don't stop believing in God, and don't give up on the people around you. It may feel like you have no one who is there for you, but I promise you, there are people who care about you and who will care about you, if you only let them. Go out in public. Try new things. Have fun. Meet new people. If you're financially independent, you could move to a new city or rural area. It will work out, if you and life team up and agree to aim high!
