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i updated my bio, picture and header.
          old me is no more lmao

So uhh hi! Are any of my followers still active? I haven't said a peep on this account for 2 years. If you followed me after my hiatus, Hello! I'm Adrian. So, here's what's up:
          
          I'm alive! And I'm actually in the works of a webcomic! Weird how this is coming full circle, I started as a preteen fanfic writer here, and now I'm almost an adult comic writer.
          
          I'm 17 now, a Junior in Highschool, and I go to a vocational. My field of study is Computer Programming and Web Development, and I hope to go into the Computer Forensics field someday.
          
          I go by 3 different usernames, BurntOutAlien, BurntOutPotato, and Invisible_Bleeding, so on other platforms if you're looking for me, try those ^^
          
          This account was my entrance to the internet. And it was the start of finding myself. In that way, I hold it very close in my heart. It made me feel like I wasn't the nobody everyone irl made me feel like.
          
          I've been thinking perhaps for nostalgia's sake, to start writing again. Not anything like I did before, as heavily angsty fanfic writting really doesn't intrest me. But maybe headcanons I have, written out to seem like they could flow freely into canon. Maybe sharing some of my own original works. Maybe I'll share some of my songs. Maybe, when my comic is ready, I'll share it here as well as Webtoon.
          
          Life is crazy. I wouldn't be the person I am today without being here. So thank you everyone for giving me the opportunity to be my own person; For giving me the chance to feel important. I really needed that as a kid. I sincerely hope you've had a good few years, and I hope you have a great life. Keep an eye out for any posts I make if you're interested :)

Pfft shit isn't working for insta but same tho we have a ton of shit in common

What's going on with my acc

Lol why am i writing this, no one will read it
          Maybe one of ny trashcans i mean friends will 
          
          Im having a moment of motivation, i have been for like a day. Should i write something but loose the motivation in like a week and drop the project or just keep my brain to myself

Do you ever read your old shit and want to fucking shoot yourself in the throat. Because I sure as hell do. 

I forgot about wattpad for a while. I have no motivation to write anymore so this account is pretty much dead feel free to unfollow. 
          Ill just be over here in my corner of self lothing :D
          I keep wanting to come back and i get really excited and i start to write then i loose motivation and delete everything. I had an entire story written at one point but i started rereading it for errors, didnt like it, lost motivation to fix it, and deleted all 47 chapters. 
          Sorry m'dudes. I've just lost my spark and can't find it. 

Hey. Try to use a pencil and paper for a coping method. Drawing working for me so maybe it will for you. You could try on a phone/iPad or computer too. Don’t expect much help from me. You and I left on a bad note.

(Lack of) FREEDOM
          I got out on the 20th
          But i have summer camp.. 
          
          From 8-4... *dead*

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