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i updated my bio, picture and header.
          old me is no more lmao

So uhh hi! Are any of my followers still active? I haven't said a peep on this account for 2 years. If you followed me after my hiatus, Hello! I'm Adrian. So, here's what's up:
          
          I'm alive! And I'm actually in the works of a webcomic! Weird how this is coming full circle, I started as a preteen fanfic writer here, and now I'm almost an adult comic writer.
          
          I'm 17 now, a Junior in Highschool, and I go to a vocational. My field of study is Computer Programming and Web Development, and I hope to go into the Computer Forensics field someday.
          
          I go by 3 different usernames, BurntOutAlien, BurntOutPotato, and Invisible_Bleeding, so on other platforms if you're looking for me, try those ^^
          
          This account was my entrance to the internet. And it was the start of finding myself. In that way, I hold it very close in my heart. It made me feel like I wasn't the nobody everyone irl made me feel like.
          
          I've been thinking perhaps for nostalgia's sake, to start writing again. Not anything like I did before, as heavily angsty fanfic writting really doesn't intrest me. But maybe headcanons I have, written out to seem like they could flow freely into canon. Maybe sharing some of my own original works. Maybe I'll share some of my songs. Maybe, when my comic is ready, I'll share it here as well as Webtoon.
          
          Life is crazy. I wouldn't be the person I am today without being here. So thank you everyone for giving me the opportunity to be my own person; For giving me the chance to feel important. I really needed that as a kid. I sincerely hope you've had a good few years, and I hope you have a great life. Keep an eye out for any posts I make if you're interested :)

Do you ever read your old shit and want to fucking shoot yourself in the throat. Because I sure as hell do. 

I forgot about wattpad for a while. I have no motivation to write anymore so this account is pretty much dead feel free to unfollow. 
          Ill just be over here in my corner of self lothing :D
          I keep wanting to come back and i get really excited and i start to write then i loose motivation and delete everything. I had an entire story written at one point but i started rereading it for errors, didnt like it, lost motivation to fix it, and deleted all 47 chapters. 
          Sorry m'dudes. I've just lost my spark and can't find it. 

Hey. Try to use a pencil and paper for a coping method. Drawing working for me so maybe it will for you. You could try on a phone/iPad or computer too. Don’t expect much help from me. You and I left on a bad note.

(Lack of) FREEDOM
          I got out on the 20th
          But i have summer camp.. 
          
          From 8-4... *dead*

Thanks for following me 

I love when my friends hate me, don't fucking you

Why am i even friends with this person XD
          This is the same person who a while ago told me i was going to hell for loving someone and believing truth
          So im known for jokingly flirting with my friends i do it with girl and guy friends. I was doing so toward my friend and then this girl who was also hanging out with us stopped dead in her tracks and was like flipping her shit. When she was done i asked three simple questions and she answered.
          What are those pj pants made of "cotton probably why does that matter"
          What is that shirt it looks smoothe "its silk. Why does the fabric of my pjs matter to you"
          What are you eating for dinner friday "probably chicken and rice.  My mom cooks a lot of that. Why does this matter are you drunk or are we playing 100 questions"
          So i turn to her. I was prepared. I know better than to hang out with her without something to piss her off.
          I pulled out a mini bible that my grandfather gave me and opened two bookmarked pages.
          It says here wearing clothes of two diffeent materials is a sin. It also says on this page that eating meat on friday is a sin. And thats just two things. I wouldnt be suprised if youve had sex already. You cant choose which is more of an issue. If those arent bad or have been changed since then why cant homosexuality being bad be changed. Sorry, but life doesnt work like that.

Damn. In November this account will be 3 years old. Ive never had any account on anything that old.