Alex

GOSH OKAY SO LIKE A BIT OF A BACKSTORY, I HAD 2 PHONES AND THE FIRST 1 BROKE BECAUSE OF OVERHEATING (GODFORBID I TRY TO LISTEN TO MUSIC WHILE I SLEEP) AND THE OTHER ONE WAS ALREADY BROKEN BUT I REPLACED ITS SCREEN BUT THEN IT BROKE BECAUSE OF THE PRESSURE OF MY FUCKING BAG SO THAT'S THAT I GUESS. AND NOW I HAVE A NEW PHONE WHILE MY FIRST PHONE IS CURRENTLY GETTING FIXED (I HAVE NO INTENTION ON RESTORING THE OTHER ONE AS OF RIGHT NOW) SO YEAH THAT'S A LIL UPDATE ON MY LIFE

Ack im back here again, im not really a significant person in anyone's life here so i can rant however i want!

My birthday was yesterday and it was hell, firstly I don’t like celebrating my birthday as i hate being the center of attention, secondly because my close friends weren’t even in school, they were competing in a contest and thirdly, no one even likes me so why would i want to go to school? I hate being “friends” with everyone there like fuck you I hate you so much just leave me alone and then they have the audacity to wish me a happy birthday just so I can treat them to lunch and shit. So yeah I am pissed right now.

Im so tired, our intrams just ended and my throat feels so sore from cheering. I feel so depressed all of the sudden, maybe because i’ve been distant from everyone lately; i dont know why im doing this but i want to stop it, i keep thinking that they dont care about me (which is probably true) and i just want to be at peace with myself

Im more active on my threads acc if you guys want to read more of my rants, its @kofiilvr 

I actually hate being alive wtf is this why do my cramps hurt so fucking bad

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR EVERYONE!!! I LOVE Y’ALL SM I HOPE YOU AL HAVE AN AMAZING YEAR

I’ve been slowly reading books here again and there’s this specific word that authors use, 'smau' which idk what it really means but as long as it isn’t freaky i’ll read anything atp (except f!reader fics, i hate being perceived as a woman in text)

Everyday i continue to feel like shit and maybe its because i’m stupid but i really don’t know what to do at this point, december is the worse fucking month here in 2024 

Okay i need to make a quick recap of my life before i get confused by my previous rants, there’s this guy i like and we’ve been classmates for about 2 years now (and a couple months back in oct or september i realized that i liked him) and so we talked and stuff (talking stage) things were going fine then i made the first move (idk if you can call it that since all i said was first move but he seemed to understand and we’ve sent flirty msgs to each other, at xmas eve he’s been saying that i should confess and so i did at 12 am and now we’re dating? Idk what the english word for manliligaw is but he’s that to me now, he asked “Puwede bang manligaw?” And I said to ask my parents first since thats what you’re supposed to do before asking the girl you like