ApatheticLycanthrope

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I don't know if I still want to write for (G)I-DLE or any K-Pop group anymore.
          	
          	My interests have changed, I'm tired of stans and the entire community in general, and I think I'd been living too vicariously through the characters I've based on real people that I feel like I'm getting out-of-touch with reality itself.
          	
          	Also, writing fanfics is just tedious and hassle for me now. I'd be more happier being a reader instead (but for a different fandom) and possibly making content in some other way that doesn't feel so daunting.
          	
          	I have no plans of deleting my accounts nor any of the works that I've posted so far. But consider those unfinished stories to be discontinued. (I would say indefinite hiatus, but I doubt that I'd be coming back to them in the near future.)
          	
          	Thank you to everyone who has supported my stories and stuck with me for this long. I know I haven't been a very good nor consistent author when it comes to fulfilling my promises and updating stories that should've reached their conclusions by this point, so I appreciate how patient you all have been with me and showing love to my works. Regardless of the fact that your author is fucking lazy as Hell and can never get shit done to save his life.
          	
          	While I haven't been the most engaging person online, I still enjoyed replying to comments and just freely interacting with other Nevies in little doses. I've been very reclusive when it comes to the fandom (for personal/privacy reasons), but there were a select few that I had felt comfortable and honestly happy talking to. I believe you know who you are, so thank you for the short but sweet messages and fun conversations. It's well-appreciated <3

MattKpopTR

@zekeisidle couldn't describe how I feel any better
          	  Don't worry, we all appreciate you as one of the biggest leaders of nevies, and if you need anything, don't forget we're always here for you ❤️✊
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echulives

I understand your situation, and i respect your choice. I just wanted to say thank you for creating all the masterpiece ❤️ remember to stay safe okay? Have an amazing life my favorite author 
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otpnevadies

@zekeisidle You're one of the most talented writers I've ever known, and I kinda sad that you're no longer interested in writing fanfics. I sympathize with your decision, I really do. It's understandable due to the fact that, you know, nothing lasts forever right? And so do your hobbies, they can change anytime, not that you want it to happen.
          	  
          	  Still glad that you will keep on being a casual lowkey supporter of (G)i-dle. Wish you all the best and take care!!! 
          	  
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ApatheticLycanthrope

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I don't know if I still want to write for (G)I-DLE or any K-Pop group anymore.
          
          My interests have changed, I'm tired of stans and the entire community in general, and I think I'd been living too vicariously through the characters I've based on real people that I feel like I'm getting out-of-touch with reality itself.
          
          Also, writing fanfics is just tedious and hassle for me now. I'd be more happier being a reader instead (but for a different fandom) and possibly making content in some other way that doesn't feel so daunting.
          
          I have no plans of deleting my accounts nor any of the works that I've posted so far. But consider those unfinished stories to be discontinued. (I would say indefinite hiatus, but I doubt that I'd be coming back to them in the near future.)
          
          Thank you to everyone who has supported my stories and stuck with me for this long. I know I haven't been a very good nor consistent author when it comes to fulfilling my promises and updating stories that should've reached their conclusions by this point, so I appreciate how patient you all have been with me and showing love to my works. Regardless of the fact that your author is fucking lazy as Hell and can never get shit done to save his life.
          
          While I haven't been the most engaging person online, I still enjoyed replying to comments and just freely interacting with other Nevies in little doses. I've been very reclusive when it comes to the fandom (for personal/privacy reasons), but there were a select few that I had felt comfortable and honestly happy talking to. I believe you know who you are, so thank you for the short but sweet messages and fun conversations. It's well-appreciated <3

MattKpopTR

@zekeisidle couldn't describe how I feel any better
            Don't worry, we all appreciate you as one of the biggest leaders of nevies, and if you need anything, don't forget we're always here for you ❤️✊
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echulives

I understand your situation, and i respect your choice. I just wanted to say thank you for creating all the masterpiece ❤️ remember to stay safe okay? Have an amazing life my favorite author 
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otpnevadies

@zekeisidle You're one of the most talented writers I've ever known, and I kinda sad that you're no longer interested in writing fanfics. I sympathize with your decision, I really do. It's understandable due to the fact that, you know, nothing lasts forever right? And so do your hobbies, they can change anytime, not that you want it to happen.
            
            Still glad that you will keep on being a casual lowkey supporter of (G)i-dle. Wish you all the best and take care!!! 
            
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ApatheticLycanthrope

If I could pull down every star in the galaxy to make Yuqi happy, I'd do it in a heartbeat.
          I hope she knows that she's loved and we're so proud of her for everything she does. Please take care of yourself, baby giant <3

ApatheticLycanthrope

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Honestly, the way things are now just feels depressing. I wanna go back to the times when these babies were just having fun and people weren't being virtuous snowflakes with a skewed sense of justice on the internet. (Yes, I'm very bitter. Don't touch me o)--()
            
            Having started their career as a group, I figured that maybe the girls feel more confident when they're together. Because they're like a pillar of support for one another, so being alone must feel pretty intimidating and, well, lonely.
            I'm sure they're all trying to be there for each other in whatever way they can, even if some of them are still far apart. I also hope that Soojin is doing okay and she's taking care of herself. I'm still worried about her, but I trust that the girls are checking up on her and keeping her company in some way.
            
            Anyway, it's good to see that you're doing alright yourself.  I feel you about the writing part, though, sometimes it feels like a tedious hobby. But hey, maybe a short break or a little inspiration could help pump a few words out. Hope school doesn't dump too much workload on you, lol. That shit is such a mood killer too.
            
            Thanks for being a real sweetheart, I appreciate it ^-^
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ApatheticLycanthrope

@theweatheriswindy I wanna give them the world, but the world doesn't deserve them :'D
            
            This past year has been just a rollercoaster with all the highs and the lows. And maybe I'm just being dramatic, but I'm lowkey kinda worried about these girls. Like hello, are y'all really okay??
            
            Yuqi's IG stories got me sobered up real quick, but it's so sweet that Miyeon and Minnie were right there to comfort her in such a wholesome way. I love them so much, they're really like family T_T
            
            I'm kinda at a limbo state with my interests, I guess?? I don't feel like writing as much these days, so I've been working and reading books more lately. But other than that, I think I've been better.
            
            Hope all is well for you over there. Take care always and stay safe!
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ApatheticLycanthrope

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Since I'm kicking my ass rn to meet my own writing quota, here's a little surprise that may get posted on AFF soon once I finally get my shit together:
          https://imgur.com/a/cnoWJ3I (MiShu one-shot request, feat. Puppy!Shu)

ApatheticLycanthrope

@theweatheriswindy Other than being sleep-deprived as usual, I'm doing pretty gucci now haha~
            Hope your day goes well too, take care :D
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ApatheticLycanthrope

I'm used to having depressive episodes often, but this one's really bad and it's affecting my mood to write at all. If I end up doing something impulsive and stupid (I considered deactivating my AFF account, for some reason), just blame it on the fact that I'm not in a very good mindset rn to think rationally.

ApatheticLycanthrope

@theweatheriswindy I'm likely gonna backslide again at some point, so I'll keep that in mind too. Thanks fam, it's appreciated <3
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ApatheticLycanthrope

@MattKpop I've gotten better now, so I'm gradually falling back into my usual routine and being (kinda) productive again.
            Thank you though, I'll keep that in mind <3
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MattKpopTR

@zekeisidle awww take ur time bro :(
            Just know if you need anyone, I'm here okay? 
            Hope you feel better soon
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ApatheticLycanthrope

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Thanks for reinforcing my hatred towards the online communities who do nothing but ruin someone's life while hiding behind their screens to avoid accountability, you absolute fucking lowlifes.

ApatheticLycanthrope

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Oh my God, I'm just ready to fight everyone in the comments and insult the entire online community. I need a fucking drink.
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ApatheticLycanthrope

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@MattKpop I don't know, it's wishful thinking.
            
            I genuinely want Soojin to come back and have IDLE perform as six again. But since when did a group ever get a removed member back?
            
            Also, I just caught up with some articles and, apparently, CUBE has been fucking up shit for both (G)I-DLE and CLC. At this point, I'm starting to be convinced that the company is sabotaging their idols.
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MattKpopTR

@zekeisidle well y'all you know what?
            I'm not stressing out
            In fact I'm so chill rn, people will probably think I'm a fake nevie
            But I'm not, and you know why? Because I believe
            I believe in the power of Gidle
            I believe in their trust
            I believe they're a family
            And I know that either soojin will come back, or Gidle will leave to another company
            Because Gidle doest need anyone, but Cube needs them 
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ApatheticLycanthrope

So, I’ve recently drafted (or hidden, in AO3 terms) “Caught in your mouse trap” on all accounts for the selfish reason that I can’t bother to continue it with the kind of set-up it had so far. I came close to abandoning the story multiple times and deleting it because of how much I hated it, but I also realized that there are readers who were genuinely interested with the premise and wanted to see it till the end.
          
          Basically, I’m gonna keep it under drafts for the meantime and come back to it when I feel the interest to salvage what was left. I might change the plot or the story elements to something else, but I’ll still be keeping the whole “hybrids” prompt.
          
          Sorry to those who had to wait so long just to be disappointed. Frankly, I’m not proud of it either. But I’d rather stop and put it in the back burner for now than trashing it completely because I gave up on it. (Dunno if that makes sense, but you get the gist.)
          
          Thanks for having the time to read this long note. Take care, and have a nice day <3

ApatheticLycanthrope

@theweatheriswindy Literally a whole-ass mood. I quit so many drafts just because I end up getting bored in the middle of writing them. Idk how some people do it, let alone have an update schedule for chaptered stuff.
            
            Here's to my commitment issues making me drop projects left and right. o)--(
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ApatheticLycanthrope

@nstarkeyrico Oh, yeah. I remember you commenting a lot on my AFF. Well-appreciated btw~
            
            I did mean to update the fic, but I kept losing my motivation midway through writing chapter three and decided to stop there because of how bored I felt. You have a point, pushing myself to continue something I clearly don't enjoy is going to end up terribly.
            
            Thanks for sticking around, despite my terrible lack of consistency :')
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nstarkeyrico

Hey Thornim (yes I’m the same person who suggested a MiYu Fic), though I am sad that I’ll have to wait a little longer for the rest of the story, I prefer you doing nothing and wait until your satisfied with a plot that you want, than you continuing and making a terrible story which you didn’t enjoy writing.
            Thank you for telling us, and I’ll definitely wait.
            
            Have a good day/ lovely night, hwaiting Thornim
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ApatheticLycanthrope

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@theweatheriswindy Yo, this is such a wholesome message to wake up to T_T
          
          Honestly, I've been in a rather deep funk these past couple of weeks and this really lifted my mood a bit. Thanks for enjoying my stuff, it means a lot to me <3
          You're a real sweetheart too. I appreciate you a whole lot, and I'm glad I got to reach out to you. Homeboy's all soft and warm now, haha~
          
          And OH GOD, that fic... I'm still so embarrassed by it, but anything for the MinQi peeps. (Those two are fucking cute together, and you know it. Can't convince me otherwise.)
          
          You deserve the support, honestly. Thanks for giving us good content and feeding us in this 98-line famine. You make those babies so soft and spicy together, I'm THRIVING.
          
          I've been out of the loop with the group's updates and stuff (I'm a goblin on YouTube and nowhere else, really), but oh my god. I'm ready for PinkYeon domination, and MY BABY SHU IS BACK HOME <3 Hope Miyeon makes that kimchi fried rice now that the kiddo is there :D
          Waiting for SooMinQi to join them too, and I'll die a happy Nevie.
          
          The Soojin drought is getting to me, mate. Someone please bring her back, it's been TOO LONG.