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I've taken up the task of re-reading 140AD myself to remember where the hell i was going with this story. The more I read, the more I don't recognise who the hell I was when I wrote it - I was a literary genius. I am definitely not that person anymore - my job has destroyed me. All I am now is a professional "email talk" person - nothing more.
          
          How the hell am I ever going to finish writing this story?

have you forgotten us?

Hey you doing alright? It’s been awhile. Just checking in! 

Cross my heart I will write this weekend.

Oh how I miss this story. Hope all is well! 

My dear people, I haven't forgotten about you, in fact, I think about you everyday.
          However, as usual, my work has got me fucked up 
          I write every now and then, but with my work, there is no rest for the wicked.

Any updates coming? 

Based on my previous post, it's possible that I can move to another company in about 3 years. They will offer me MANY more advantages than my current company - live changing really.
          
          So, I'm seriously considering it. The thing is, it's our biggest competitors and my boss will likely not give me a letter of recommendation if she finds out where I'm going.
          
          I've been working for this company for almost 2 years and haven't received a written contract, but I earn more than the average person. However, if I do receive a contract in the next 3 years, I won't be able to leave and work for the other company immediately. 
          
          That contract would force me to wait a year, before I can work in tourism again.
          
          Its hard.

Work has been killing me lately. I look at a screen 5 days a week 07h00 to 16h00. It leaves me so discouraged to write because I just want to be as far as possible from a laptop on weekends.
          
          I love 140AD so much, but I just can't find the time to write. I would literally have to take off for 2 weeks to be encouraged to write. Just to be away from everything.
          
          Technically my job is 24/7 because its in tourism. I constantly have people travelling and need to be available for them all the time.
          
          I'm exhausted, that's the bottomline.
          
          I took off last year Nov-Dec for two weeks and still worked on those days. Its only January and I feel overwhelmed by what the company has put on me for a new position. I don't know how to approach this with them because they expect so much of me. I constantly feel pressured to over achieve because my boss just about feels like a celebrity in our target market.
          
          Last weekend I word-exploded to my boss how pissed off I was about a certain supplier and she didn't take it well - not only this but the suppliers we're forced to use even though they're not affordable. This whole week has been hard as my 2nd boss certainly didn't appreciate me talking to the main boss. 
          
          I've dreaded the whole week, and run on 1-2 hours of sleep each day because I just feel so terrible about everything. I reacted based on my emotions and its caused a shitload of problems.
          
          I love my job and I want to do it for the rest of my life, but fuck, its terribly hard to navigate when you (me) has an idea and way of doing things that don't line up with the elites in the company.
          
          Anyway, thanks for coming to my TED talk. I'm done now.

Recently started watching Arcane and I'm a bit taken by both Vi & Cait. I saw the spoilers, and I'm already upset that there won't be a season 3. Why do they always deny the lesbians?