Apollo/Emma

Girllll where have you been

hey guys
          
          yeah come closer
          
          no a little closer
          
          (hey how ya doing lil mama lemme whisper in your ear) 
          
          KIDDING
          
          bUT
          
          I got a caravan :D
          
          so now me and my family can go on holiday more frequently and oh my god I am so happy I'm gonna go eVERYWHERE :DDDD
          
          

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH
          
          FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE UNABLE TO COME OUT, YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND YOU ARE LOVED, THE TIME WILL COME <333 TRUST ME IT FEELS SO MUCH BETTER ONCE YOU FINALLY GET IT OFF YOUR CHEST

BRUH HELP I CANT GET MY PFP NOT-SIDEWAYS IVE TRIED EVERYTHING 

not 100% sure how to fix my personality, i suppose its been alright because my friendgroup has ecpanded from 4 to 12 (including me) and ive picked up more hobbies and interests, but im an overthinker and ive been self conscious about whether im funny enough, whether what i just said was weird, whether everyone hates me now. its hard, and im still trying, but it has gotten better, and even though people who used to laugh at my jokes on facetime at 2am no longer laugh as much as they used to and we dont talk daily, we are still friends and i have more friends that *do* find improved emma funny. im still working on it, but im okay for now.
          
          i basically just wanna say, whatever youre going through, keep going. in the long run, no one else can help you but yourself. go to therapy, take part in that activity youve been wanting to try out, try, fail, cry, then try again and succeed. because no matter what happens, it *will* always work out in the end, and i can promise you that my lovelies.
          
          ~Frying Pan❤
          
          (dude taht shi was so fiddly bc in total it exceeded like 4000 characters and the maximum for announcements is like 1500 or summin)

part 2 to my big words
          
          i have problems at home because of my bad relationship with my parents that is ongoing to the unforeseen future, and im still an insecure person. BUT, i cut my long hair off, now its healthy & doesnt reach my shoulders. i found my style, ive come out to my parents for over a year now, and alterred my appearance in a way that im more comfy w/ myself. my personality has changed, instead of negative thoughts i now an ego thats probably annoying, n' whilst i still have negative thoughts, im working on it:
          
          -started working out so my brain thinks more positively about my body, its working.
          -fixed my sleep schedule so instead of 4 hrs of sleep on a school day, its always at least 7, but most days i get 8. my eyebags r less noticeable and i have more energy.
          -ive put more effort into myself, i style my hair, i do makeup and i actually care about my skin rather than picking the nearest product and pretending it works, its a case of trial and error and im workin on it.
          
          (go to part 3 cos apparently rhis bitch was bigger than i thought)

I typed out big meaningful announcement, was HUGE so it has to be split into 2 announcements :3 sorry
          
          oh my goodness im reading like my rlly old announcements and shit is nostalgiac-
          
          cos like even though i think i was funnier back then, and my personality at the moment is probably one of my biggest insecurities alongside my face so im tryna figure that out, but like... im happier
          
          back in 2021 and early 2022, i had a very limited friendgroup and i was incredibly unproductive, my hair was damaged and frizzy, and i revolved my time around wattpad, rather than friends, family, studies or myself, because i wanted to cling onto those short term feelings of happiness i got whenever i read a good fanfiction about someone i can't get to know personally, and it made me neglect myself in general.
          
          I got lucky, and my mental health never deterred to SH or even an ED because of my insecurities, but it was never perfect. I was self conscious and had the obstacle taht in still dealing with today.
          
          but now ive healed. not fully, obviously, im like a walking scar. ive always done this thing where whenever i have a scab, i wanna pick it off for fun and i do, i have scars coverring my body because of that. i now realise ive been doing that with my mental health too.
          
          (comtinue reading on te next, more recent announcememt)

after years of simping, i have concluded my type is:
          slutty, nervous men
          handsome gentlewomen
          egotistical non binaries
          and anyone who is pretty inside and dorky n cute outside but they dont realise how gorgeous they are

Hi! i was wondering if anyone wanted to have an online-friend group chat on snap chat with me? the reason i wanna use snapchat instead of discord is because ill be honest creating a server is confusing. i used to have a huge gc back in 2020 with so many friends and whilst its gone now it was so fun when it existed and im glad i had that time with those people.
          
          the only thing that matters is age, preferably someone who is in the age range of 12-16, any older or younger im honestly uncomfortable with (SORRY ): )
          
          we would just chill and get to know each other and gossip safely because none of us actually know each other irl, i just think itd be a fun thing to do, so if youre interested lemme know and ill DM you my snap!
          
          i hope we can be friends >:)

Sobs violently because the man, the myth the legend has passed away :(
          
          You will be very missed, thank you for being hagrid in my childhood, rest in peace robbie.