bella

I don't believe that Heeseung chose to go by himself.
          
          Not after workers and fans apparently saw him crying and fainting in the Hybe building.
          
          Not after apparently the letter was generated with ai.
          
          Not after Jungwon's deleted post about how the members didn't know he'd go.
          
          ENHYPEN IS 7
          
          BRING HEESEUNG BACK
          
          AND FUCK YOU BELIFT

I don't how how to express what I'm feeling right now. I think there is no good. way to describe how something in me broke when I saw Heeseung's weverse post.
          
          I still haven't fully processed that he really left. I still hope that this is a cruel prank. But it isn't.
          
          So first of all I want to say that no matter if Heeseung's with the group or not, I will continue to support them all. Riki. Jungwon. Sunoo. Jake. Sunghoon. Jay. And Heeseung. In my heart and my memory, they will always be 7. 
          
          They will always be the family who pulled me back up when I was down.
          Whose vlogs and EN o clock episodes gave me a safe space to catch a breath. 
          Whose music helped me through panic and stress.
          
          If it's Heeseung's decision to focus in his solo carrier, then I respect this, even if it is fucking hard.
          To me, it just doesn't make sence why he'd leave so suddenly.
          
          Mabye this is why it hurts so much, because it was something I didn't see coming.
          
          I still love Enhypen. But I think it won't be the same without Heeseung.
          
          I hope that someday I can look at their old content and listen to their songs without crying like today.
          
          It's not dramatic. This is what it feels like when a piece of your safa space gets ripped away.
          
          But more than I hope for a reunion I hope that the members and Heeseung are happy. I can't imagine how they must be hurting right now. I only know that they do, because this boys weren't - aren't - just a group. They are each others world.
          
          So I hope that Heeseung will be happy as a soloist. I hope the other members will be happy aswell. I hope they still get to see each other often, and I hope Belift leaves them fucking alone now.
          
          I hope Heeseung knows that were are supporting him nevertheless. 
          
          I hope he knows that Engenes still have his back, and Enhypen's aswell.
          
          For me, they will always be 7. They will always be my habour in the storms of life. And Heeseung will always be a part of it.
          
          ~Bella
          
          

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