i just need to rant right now, my mom feels so controlling, my holidays started, and i want to see my friends but i can't go anywhere without doing my piano math and singing practice three days in a row i feel like i'm drowning in expectations and all i wanna do is just see my friends and be happy i feel like i wanna cry every minute of the day i wanna go home to a place i've never been to i wanna be seven years old and fell loved again i wanna die and start over my life i feel like a disappointment to everyone i know my mom says i should stop dreaming durring the day but if i don't i fall apart from the inside and i don't know what to do i feel stuck in a life i didn't ask for, i didn't ask to be born, i don't care that i live a comfortable life, and when people say 'be grateful' it's just, what if i didn't ask to be born what if i just wanna be someone normal who doesn't have to constantly argue and defend herself because everyone keeps telling me 'you're wrong' i don't wanna have two personalities for school and home i don't wanna be the quiet savage kid who pretends that she hasn't considered stabbing herself, i don't wanna laugh it off with my friends when things truly hurt me, i don't wanna have friends just to hurt them when i eventually probably kill myself i don't wanna be a person consider killing myself just to see if my friends will really care, i don't wanna live a life where i feel like i'm constantly stepping on glass i just wanna let go
