A V I E

Why would you waste your time on people who doesnt  want to be in your life. Do things that make you happy.
          Be with the people that makes you feel alive. Feel that you're worth it. Don't dwell on people that did not want to be with you. Life is long and at the same time life is short. You're gonna die, I just want you to realise that would make you tell yourself that you've live a good life. Bcoz I focus on the things who see my value and worth not with the people who doesnt want to belong to you. 

Going with the flow is nice, but having a love that comes from the genuineness of waiting and wanting to get to know you in the slowest pace is rare. Believing that hurrying is only for the weak because you have the entirety of lifetime to spend. Seizing each moment to deepen the connection within just to ensure that what they pursue is worthy. And making each time right for them despite challenges and risks of falling out of love.
          
          And that kind of love is something I would like to keep in my pocket. I'd like to take every cadence to recognize love languages and distinguish the ways to meet them. I'd like to do step by step the practice of loosening the grip and wrapping around fingers; balancing my efforts to protect ours like citadel. I'd like to value every split second to establish the vibe— assurance of laughing together and not a shame of crying alone.
          
          Lucky are those who found someone who envisions love the same way. What could be more beautiful than introducing souls to evergreen? 
          
          Unforced connection. 
          Deep understanding.
          Caress. Two hearts beat as one.
          
          
          
          
          It was rare, I was there, I remember it.. All too well..
          I was rare.... ❤️  My genuine heart is rare...
          but you throw it away.. like I'm like an outdated toy.
          But then again, it was your lost, not mine. 
          
          
          
          

"Am I really alive? I'm getting confused. Lately I felt like I'm just a ghost wandering without an exact location to go to. 
          
          I have never been this dead inside."
          
          —

I am loved, I am beautiful, I am worth it, I am unique.
          
          
          God is greater than my pain
          Everything happens for a reason.
          This too shall pass.
          It is what it is.
          You can do it.
          
          
          I am beautiful and free as a butterfly.
          
          STAY STRONG MISS. 

HEALING IS WEIRDDD TONGUE IN A..
          
          ayoko ng ganitong feeling. pottah.
          
          Acceptance okay???  Ganun talgaaaaa.. 

A letter to the girl who feels lost ---
          
          I understand that on some days it feels like you're going nowhere. 
          
          I don't know how many sleepless night you had, thinking of all the possible reasons why some things aren't really working for you. It's frustrating to feel left behind, but it's even more frustrating when the people you are expecting to understand you kept on putting so much pressure in you.
          
          I don't know how many times your heart got broken, thinking of all the possible reasons why the people you love kept on leaving. There's a feeling of being unworthy to receive the kind of the love you are always trying to give to everyone.
          
          I know the feeling of being left behind.
          I know the feeling of wanting to keep people.
          I know you've been through a lot this year.
          And here you are, looking for answers.
          
          But, it's never your fault; people come and go, and closed doors are redirection. It's not because you weren't enough, but because God has something better in His mind for you. 
          
          You may not fully understand why you had to go through this process, but know that one day, He will wipe your tears, and make you dream and fall in love again.
          
          Breathe.
          God will never leave you nor forsake you.
          He is the only One who will never disappoint you.

I haven’t moved on because I haven’t had any closure, she said.
          
          But that’s the thing, right? You hardly ever get closure in real life.
          
          It doesn’t work like in the movies, where the couple sit together, have a talk, get to know what went wrong, maybe shed a few tears and then move on with the firm knowledge of things. Or maybe they meet years down the line and reminiscence about how good things were together over a cup of coffee.
          
          Real life breakups are messy, heart-breaking and sometimes, completely unnecessary. There is no slow sound track accompanying you walking away from the person who cheated on you, no guilty ex coming back to apologize months later, nothing of the sort.
          
          And you know what? It’s okay.
          
          It really is.
          
          Because you do not really need closure from someone who has given up on you. You do not deserve someone who cannot even look you in the eye when they break your heart. I know you think you mattered and you desperately want to hold onto the lies they told you, I know how much it hurts, trust me I do.
          
          But you have to look past the pain and learn how to love yourself first. You need to realize that every boundary is the one that you define in any relationship. And now you know much better on how to define those.
          
          It will be hard, no doubt about it, but you will get over it. Because you know what? The day you realize that the only closure you need has to come from within and not from anyone else, is the day you will truly move on from any broken heart.
          
          

Di ka marunung bumasa ghorl dapat sayo bumabalik ng grade 1 e.. hmmmp mali ka na naman... so iiwas kana naman hayssss 

I once dated a guy for 8 months without a label cos “he needs time”. 
          
          I was 23; he was 31.
          He was the first guy I dated and he’s already an expert in the game. 
          
          Everything’s “okay” until I demanded: “so, ano tayo”. 
          
          He froze. He said: “you’re suffocating me”. 
          I said sorry. I said, “I won’t ask again”.
          
          Still, he ghosted me.  and still, I begged and texted for days. 
          
          It was so humiliating. I forgot my worth.
          
          That was my first heartbreak and that was my greatest lesson. 
          
          You literally need to hit a low before you can snap back to reality no? 
          
          I’m so happy that chapter is over. I now have a partner who is always behind me - supporting me. 
          
          And I tell you, it’s the best feeling ever. 
          
          I am writing this for all the 23 year old women out there begging and settling . 
          
          Your friends must have warned you. Well, your gut must have raised an alarm for the longest time but wala eh, mahal talaga eh. 
          
          Sis, when the time comes na narealize mo na he was a waste of time, I want you to be kind to yourself. 
          
          It was his fault. Your only mistake was having a poor taste  

Totoo ang sinabi nila.
          
          Mas nagtatagal pa 
          ang pagsisisi at panghihinayang
          kaysa sa pagmamahal.
          
          
           The Smile Has Left Your Eyes