Arandomhuman135

vent. 
          
          
          It feels like you never fucking listen. I try to say stuff to you I text you but you never acknowledge it. You don’t reply. I tell you I really enjoy this thing rn, and you never reply. Instead you randomly send me werid TikTok’s that make me uncomfortable. I try to communicate I don’t like those types of things and you just keep sending that shit. You make me worried that I’m going to lose you because you believe I don’t have somthing when I’m not even fully saying I have it I’m just saying that it may be a possibility, you say I’ve ‘faked’ things in the past, I don’t remember. I try to ask you further questions and you just change the topic. You are constantly saying no you don’t have that I would know. YOU DONT KNOW. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT I DEAL WITH YOULL NEVER FULLY KNOW? HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW YOUR NOT ME. STOP SAYING THAT PLEASE. IM SO TIRED OF CONSTANTLY BEING WORRIED THAT YOUR GOING TO BE LIKE ‘oh. No you don’t have that, I already figured out what you have.’ I ask you what you think I have and instead you just say, ‘you wouldn’t agree’ or ‘youd get upset’ I’m tired of it. You make jokes out a coping mechanism you know I fucking use. It’s the same as when they made fun of your coping mechanism, why can’t you see that? ‘I’m age regressing!’ Shut up please. I’m so done I’ve been made a joke by someone who I thought was closest to me. I’ve told you about my issues with eating maybe you don’t remember or maybe you don’t fucking care. Beacuse you still say things about my eating, ‘you never eat’ yea. I don’t. And that’s my problem, my thing to navigate, not for you to say ‘you need to eat’ or ‘we need to fatten you up’. Please. Just let me figure myself out… please. I love you so dearly, but you make it so hard for me to simply talk about how I feel or what I think may be happening with me. 
          (Not about anyone here. Advice/words are welcome and appreciated.)

WHY HAVE TWO PEOPLE TAKEN UP RESIDENCE IN MY WALLS. IM CONFUSED. WHERE DID YALL COME FROM PLEASE. WHERE DID YOU FIND ME?? HOW?? DID SOMEONE POST ABT ME??

Okay. I need to know if I’m overreacting/overthinking. So I was on Roblox trying to make new friends on the soulmate game bc they have a lot of nice people on there and I got matched with this guy and he immediately started talking to me and stuff and eventually were talking back and forth and he’s making jokes and making references to yk waht, and I just go along with it saying how that’s wild, and how he says he’s straight and how I don’t believe he is and he just keeps doing this and I’m like “oh I’m worried ima end up in one of those troll vids” and he’s saying how he isn’t trolling me n stuff but I’m so worried cuz what if he is? I don’t wanna end up in one of those edater vids or anything just beacuse I wanted more friends. I’m so worried…. And the worst part is that if I’m in a troll vid my user is prob gonna be in the vid unless he decides to take pity on me and block it in the vid. I’m just so worried. And the worst part is when I told him I wasn’t into yk what since he kept like doing that when I was typing In stuff he just said “but I am” and continued and like ‘laughed’ and he was making me feel uncomfy and tiny at the same time so I’m slitghly tiny when he’s doing all this :( I dunno if I’m just overthinking I just don’t wanna end up in one of those vids :(.

I hate having to hide things. I feel so guilty. I’m horrible I really am and I’m scared. I’m so scared. I don’t want to get everything taken for more years. Im so worried.

IM ALIVE SORRY YALL IBIX PAINT UPDATED AND NOW I CANT GET DISCORD AND WATTPAD ON THERE BUT I MANAGED TO GET TO WATTPAD HAVENT FIGURED OUT HOW TO GET DISCORD BACK YET THO BUT YAY

How's you doing?

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY I HAVE TUMBLR NOW

@Dragon_of_jade @BirdishInsanity you are both tumblr users, does it require a age or face verification?

I’m so sad bro I decided to look at tumbler for the frist time in my life cuz I wanted to see if there was the Pitt Agere on the and THERE ISS but I was looking through it and then it gave me the screen that forces you to sign in or up before you can look more very upsetting…

Outlasting the trials till two am is peak though my bones hurt a lot.