my.. I didn't know what happened to Justin until just now. I didn't really /know/ him and it's upsetting, so I can't even fathom how those who did- especially you, as his best friend- feel.
One thing I must insist is that it's not your fault. Somehow, someway, you may have been able to do.something else, but it's apparent you couldn't have. What counts is that you tried. His mum's note said that you helped him so much, made him happy. You were saving him, even before that moment, and you succeeded, Aras. Remember that.
It's admirable that you're going strong even after this. Depression is like drowning.. But despite all that, you're trying to stay afloat. Don't give up.
I'm not sure how active you are, if you'll read this, or if you'll ever want to talk. But I had the urge to say something, and I'll be here if you do too.
I'm also sorry if this does more harm than help. Take each day at a time, and have a good one today. @ArasTheSandstorm