ArcaneExistence

So how do I begin this? Im probably gonna quit on wattpad and give it to jensen. (If he'll take it) because im not active, there's not much to write. Thats not wattpads fault its mine.
          
          Like I love everyone that I have around me but let's face it, Im not important, maybe to some people, but Im not important to myself.
          
          I guess I gave up a long time ago and with my life I gave up on that too, I realize I care so much it does hurt, it's painful and I've had two accidents over it. 
          
          I'm probably gonna try to post videos on YouTube I've posted a few of my cat Lucifer, and the wolf hidey, and some crappy skyrim gaming. I'm apart of Night hunter I posted a project I did in school of a song and I tried to credit everyone.
          
          I know YouTube is changing but what honestly can one do?
          
          I love you all stay happy Don't give up be better then me.
          
          Bye everyone lots of love!

Guys, I know im the most disappearing thing in existence and I am surprised im not ghosted a lot. I have been doing my best in making my brothers wish a reality, but the point of writing this is...I am going through a rough patch in my life where I was accused of having depression over my anxiety, and people calling me stuff that shouldn't be said because of the untrueness (not a. Word) to it. 
          
          Some of you are the dearest things in my life and with everything building up and falling apart. I just have to say that I.....waking up is getting harder on me for things that just I don't know.
          
          I don't know anything in life anymore, my strive to make people happy to a point where it literally hurts me is going to be my downfall in life and to you all I can say is im sorry.
          
          Im sorry that I don't write as much as I should.
          Im sorry that I am only getting filled with tears in my eyes that only represent my failures and regrets.
          Im sorry that life sucks.
          And im getting to a point on this and trying to stay on topic I really I am.
          
          Sadly through this ranting  I am basically pathetic over this whole 'sometimes life sucks' topic  im just not good at it.
          
          All I can say is don't fall into things that are terrible or your afraid of admitting because your scared of a result of a bad reaction.
          
          You are only human and just being only human, allows you to make mistakes.

hi bítch, love you ♡ xx

ya know i barley am here by  love it so much to be here i feel incomplete without myself, you guys spark inspiration in me

hi! hope it's not a bother but can you please check my stories? ( esp. rude texting ) thanks!