Hello Hwarangs,
Happy New Year.
Since 3yrs ago I don't have something to look forward to when new year comes. I was just living day by day. I know I wasn't able to tell clearly why I was suddenly on hiatus last 2017 and back for a few updates then out of the picture again last year. Those years, I've been in a silent battle, fighting on my own and trying to keep myself together even though what I really wanted is take a rest, forever. It was hard but I was able to endure. If dec is a month that most people are excited, it was dreaded month for me. And just like the past yr, last dec was once again a rollercoaster.
Something change, I spent my xmas reading watty story this time. For 2 days w/o work all I did was read, stop a few mins to eat and a few hours to sleep then read again. I finished 4 stories with more or less 50 chaps with words about 2k to 3k or more from only 1 author. I accidentally browse the authors conversation feed and I've read a lot of readers comments and post. Something deep inside me snaps, I realized how much I miss those things, reading post and comments from my readers and interacting with them. With those feelings and being inspired by that author I vowed myself to write again and be active here in watty as much as possible. This time I want to write with all that I've got, w/o inhibitions and reservation. For the first time I look forward to the new year.
Everything won't come easy though, with a day before new year comes the thing I've been fighting for 3yrs remind me that it was still there. I’d never forget about it, I know was just dormant and it will come again to haunt, and it did. This time I don’t want to succumb into it while it is slowly dragging and drowning me into the bottom of the pit. I don’t want to let it consume me wholly.
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