Argootse

According to Aristotle, there are three types of friendship: friendship of utility, friendship of pleasure, and friendship of virtue.
          	
          	I feel like all the 'friends' I have are friends of utility.
          	
          	I never felt that I had truly bonded and lifted each other with someone I call a 'friend'.
          	
          	All of them are like passing acquaintances, they all needed something from me. And, I'm a hypocrite for saying this, but, I need something from them... you.
          	
          	I feel like a lone island endlessly travelling through the vast sea. I met and talked with some but they all drifted away eventually.
          	
          	(Big rant)

SiobhanSW

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SiobhanSW

@Argootse I fell that, but it is a bad habit to always blame the other person. Some people (like myself) have object permanence and forget with daily/weekly messages. And others are just lazy. If you are the one constantly reaching out then yes your annoyance is understandable. 
          	  
          	  There's also the fact that people may struggle with online relationships. Or feel they don't want to talk to others too far off their age.
          	  If you have concerns you should message those people, it's a lot harder to tell what people think online so they can't read yours.
          	  
          	  If they push you away further, or don't reply, then you know why. But you might find others you haven't talked to in a while might be thinking the same as you, but are too scared to reach out first.
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Argootse

I yearn for connection so I always feel lonely and at fault when they ignore me
          	  
          	  I know it's childish. But I am a child, so I think it's fine.
          	  
          	  I always silently cry when I stare at my empty screen, when those 'friends' couldn't update me or give a reason as to why they're ignoring me.
          	  
          	  It's my fault because I grew to throw away my friends.
          	  
          	  I'm a greedy man who craves attention from others.
          	  
          	  My chest feels cold and a sense of loneliness fills my heart when I stare at their empty response or when they hide their status lol
          	  
          	  I'm causing my own suffering 
          	  
          	  I never confronted them because I fear that I'll be proven wrong, fear that I'm paranoid. 
          	  
          	  So, I just toss them away, block them, or forget about them.
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Argootse

According to Aristotle, there are three types of friendship: friendship of utility, friendship of pleasure, and friendship of virtue.
          
          I feel like all the 'friends' I have are friends of utility.
          
          I never felt that I had truly bonded and lifted each other with someone I call a 'friend'.
          
          All of them are like passing acquaintances, they all needed something from me. And, I'm a hypocrite for saying this, but, I need something from them... you.
          
          I feel like a lone island endlessly travelling through the vast sea. I met and talked with some but they all drifted away eventually.
          
          (Big rant)

SiobhanSW

@SiobhanSW *without
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SiobhanSW

@Argootse I fell that, but it is a bad habit to always blame the other person. Some people (like myself) have object permanence and forget with daily/weekly messages. And others are just lazy. If you are the one constantly reaching out then yes your annoyance is understandable. 
            
            There's also the fact that people may struggle with online relationships. Or feel they don't want to talk to others too far off their age.
            If you have concerns you should message those people, it's a lot harder to tell what people think online so they can't read yours.
            
            If they push you away further, or don't reply, then you know why. But you might find others you haven't talked to in a while might be thinking the same as you, but are too scared to reach out first.
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Argootse

I yearn for connection so I always feel lonely and at fault when they ignore me
            
            I know it's childish. But I am a child, so I think it's fine.
            
            I always silently cry when I stare at my empty screen, when those 'friends' couldn't update me or give a reason as to why they're ignoring me.
            
            It's my fault because I grew to throw away my friends.
            
            I'm a greedy man who craves attention from others.
            
            My chest feels cold and a sense of loneliness fills my heart when I stare at their empty response or when they hide their status lol
            
            I'm causing my own suffering 
            
            I never confronted them because I fear that I'll be proven wrong, fear that I'm paranoid. 
            
            So, I just toss them away, block them, or forget about them.
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Argootse

I'm writing a chapter before going to school. I promise

Argootse

@elinhmarlene Just finished it lol it's quite short lol
            
            Thanks
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elinhmarlene

@Argootse chapter is escapism from School life I guess?...
            You can do it
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Argootse

I republished it...
          
          But I probably won't work on it much. I'm rarely sleeping and I feel like my mind is

elinhmarlene

@Argootse take your time Argootse ⚔️
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Argootse

@Argootse lel I dunno how to voice it out
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Argootse

@Argootse Kinda beating me up
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Argootse

Just wanted someone to give feedback on my novel and it turned sour... Like sour patch kids

Argootse

@Argootse I know
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Argootse

@Argootse You suck
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Argootse

@Argootse Well, it's my fault
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