Fake laughs, Fake smile, Fake personality name it. It's all in me. Pretending to be happy when I'm not. Pretending to smile when I really wanna cry. Show my emotions but can't.

 I can't let anyone know me. The REAL me. The one who rarely smiles, talk, and socialize. But I need to pretend. In order to keep my friends. But my depression makes it worse than before. 

All my emotions that I've been keeping for a long time have been always being lashed out to my friends.

I spat at them. Saying rude things carried by my emotion. Anger. Anger that can easily destroy my friendship. My own Family. And my self too.

I'm little by little breaking apart. I'm Depressed, I almost have Insomnia and to commit suicide. But I can't. I need to be strong for my family. 

Heh,a family that never knows the real me. My friends, who doesn't know what is happening in my awful life. 

No one confronted nor comforted me. Oh yes of course! They don't know the ME again. How great. My Big clues that seems nothing to them. 

Am I a trash just being thrown away? Not being cared?I don't know anymore.

 Seems like I've been drowning, drowning from my emotions. How can they comfort me if They don't know the story of my life. 

My Miserable life.













A Little Teaser for my next story