I have this fear. That one day, he'll wake up and not feel the same way like he does. I have had that happen to me. Where they tell you they love you, they tell you everything you are wanting to hear. Then, one day, they just wake up, and its all over. They don't have the same feelings for you like they once did. They don't have the interest in you like they did when one of you first said hi. It makes me worried that he may be walking down the halls at school one day, or walking down the street, or on social media, etc. And he sees this girl. He'll compare me to her and see what she has that I don't. He'll see more opportunities in her then he can with me. And I don't think I'm going to be prepared for that, no one ever really is. And I just don't want to loose something that is so dear to me, something that I love so much, wake up and realize that there is more out there than just me. Even though, I have tried so hard to show him that I am giving him all that I can.
It just sucks to be scared of something like that. Because you know that in this real world that we are forced to live in, things happen like that. I wish I could read minds sometimes. Because someone could be lying through their teeth to you, and you wouldn't even know. So, when he says he loves me, I don't know if he is meaning it or if he is just saying it because he knows that he will gain my trust. This constant fear that I can't get rid of makes me overthink, which isn't good for anyone. I'm not the best person, I have had my mistakes. I have done something that I never really should have done. But he says that he loves me, and he says that it doesn't matter what I have done. Or where I have been. Or what I have seen. As long as we both can love each other without any limit. But one day, there will be a limit. And...I don't want to wake up to that again. That call, that text, that person who said that they loved me and told me everything I wanted to hear, "Sorry, but it's over."
