When life appears monochromatic, words became the catalyst that allowed me to feel emotions. It taught me that there are beautiful ways to communicate how you feel. 

And even though my writing skills are infantile and rough, finding the words to express what I want to illustrate within the reader's mind is an exhilarating journey for me.

I recently found out the importance of words, and how it can impact the course of your life or even affect the relationships you have. 

That it feels so bittersweet being incapable of finding the right words to express how you feel. 

I'm different from most people, I'm socially inept and obnoxious at times which is why it's hard to find a place that can accept me. 

Which is why instead of seeking for the place where I belong, I realized that I should create it myself. 

And it made want to strive to become a better person, it motivated me to become stronger so that people I cherish can depend on me more. 

Reading this might seem confusing since the notion's not fluid.

But that might also give you a clue as to how a mess I am as person. 

I'm like a candle that only knows how to burn.

Which is why I'm always burned out.

But when I finally learned how to radiate warmth without overexerting myself.

You'll later find that this part will be updated. 

And I can't wait to find the words on how to express that.