I let myself down more than my readers. I'm a terrible author. Let's face it: my plots are stale, they have little to no movement whatsoever, and then when I TRY to make them better, I never complete it. I have no fucking vocabulary. 

I try so hard when I can't create a bestseller. And I would be fine with that! I would, really. But no one would ever read a book I publish because of how stupid and childish it would sound. The only reason I had my dear fans reading any of my books was because they were fanfics! And let's be honest, that's the only way I'd ever get a second look - a book based off of famous people others love. 

I'm sorry. I really hope you can forgive this madness.