@Asexual_Bread
God, I actually had such major problems back in 2021. Sorry to anyone who read my meltdown paragraphs. I think I deleted most of them but left one as a reminder to not let myself develop the bad coping mechanisms I had. God, I’m so sorry to anyone who had to communicate with me back then, even if it was a positive conversation. I was actually insane.
hi
Sisters,I’m back from war—
Anyway,I’ve been gone a while haven’t I?Dunno why?Ig I just thought “ ao3 be smacking rn,so I cheated on Wattpad for a while.Sorry not sorry,but I missed a lot of you guys,cause you helped me through some tough times,and I thought about it frequently;but I just wanted to say,I’ll sometimes come on here,talk w/ a few of y’all,but I don’t think I’ll be reading on here anymore.Love y’all,hope that you all stay safe.Especially w/ the moral right to do what we want w/ our bodies being taken away.I’m sorry to all those who have not been able to get an abortion through these tough times.Love y’all.See ya,peeps
@ JinxIsMommy lit same like i use wattpad to check on my notifs and online friends, thats lit it
Soooooooo you like Jinx
The best thing happened to me today.
So,I was in the drive way at McDonald’s,y’know getting food.So when we pull up,my mom and the lady talk.The woman looks and at me and says,”He must be happy about that”.HE.HE.HE.HE.HE.HE.HE.HE.
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sorry,it just literally makes me so happy that someone didn’t see me as a girl.
Yay.
What’s happening?Something is happening…my anxiety is terrifying now,I can’t control my emotions anymore.
The figures have been coming around less recently,I can feel the creeping….Am I in danger?Is this it?I don’t know anymore?….
what do I with this?This utterly terrifying feeling?Feeling the eyes watching,to the point my back burns…What…what is this exactly?
Is this death?My self care has gone down,my appearance is more deathly than when I was in my younger years…I’m scared.
My stomach feels so strained from the screams I have held in,the cries I have sobbed,the anxiety tearing me apart;would it be easier to die?
Than this,this DEREALIZATION,this utter pain,that’s thoughts,even the voices are quiet,they only show up when I have anxiety attacks now..are they afraid too??What do I do if even my tormentors are afraid?
Can I run?Should I run?Is this what giving up feels like?
I think it it’s something else,but at the same time I’m positive it’s giving up..my insecurities amplified,my thoughts darker,where am I going?Why am I getting worse?I feel no fear for death anymore?I am just holding in to the wish of it magically just “getting better”?
What am I thinking?Is if all pointless……should I give up?
@powderin_jinx hi.Thanks for that.I’ve been on hiatus from everything for awhile.I was having issues with my mom,so I stopped going online.She figured I was gay,and she doesn’t care how much it all hurts me.I’m coping though. I’ll be fine!Don’t worry about the month thing!As you can see,I am no better^v^!!
@JinxIsMommy hey, I stumbled upon your comment and looked through your acc and saw this. I'm so sorry that's happening to you, but you're not alone. Millions of other people go through this, yet they're still living every single day. If MILLIONS can do this, you can. It's all alright. Just take breathing lessons, okay? Meditate, maybe. It's all going to be fine. Nothing is happening to you, it's just your anxiety and it's nothing serious. No one is gonna hurt you and that's for certain. Please, cry. Cry whenever you want to, it's fine and it's normal to cry. It's not okay to keep it all in. You shouldn't bottle it all up, you need to talk to someone. If you can't, try looking for things to occupy your mind with. New hobbies, maybe? Drawing, writing, just anything! Listening to music, watching your favorite things, rereading your favorite book. And no, you shouldn't give up. You're still young and you need to live to the fullest. You can meet new amazing people growing up and have a good life, you're still going and I am so proud of you. And even tho idk you, I hope you have a happy, wonderful year! I just noticed this was posted a month ago but its too late now...
What is y’all’s opinion on security breach?If you don’t know what that is,then I will elaborate.I personally loved it.I feel like I’m a bad person for simping for almost all the bots.I’m even simping for Music Man,bro;-;if I had a dime for all of the times I have simped for robots,I’d have sixteen.Which isn’t a lot,but weird it’s happened that much!
@Lourdes_the_writer Security Breach is a Five Nights at Freddy’s game.It’s really cool.
I—wow—Well...that was very informative.So you know Ranboo’s death?Yeah,y’know how Wilbur wrote it from his perspective in detail on Ao3?Yeah,ummm...Wow....That was very—I just loved that so much—if only you could leave extra Kudos.But ya can’t.Well,imma go now.Not sure what I’m gonna do,I’m just gonna do something.Something THAT IS NOT,crying.Bye!
I told my dad I should’ve called him last week and he said we shouldn’t use should’s.And then he said,AND I QUOTE,”Sometimes we should all over ourselves”.If you didn’t get that,say it out loud.If you still didn’t get that.....
Well,idk how else to say that it’s a dad joke.He replaced ‘shit’ with ‘should’.Why?MY FATHER,WHYY-
So this is some old news,but guess what?I got the COVIDssss!Yup!My brother had it first,and he would not let anybody near him.He just sat in his room and went downstairs if he didn’t see us down there.It was sad.ANYWAY,GOT THAT CORONA REEF DANCING AROUND SO—idk what to say after that—