Ash_CookieMonster

Woke up having another anxiety attack last night, I have GOT to change my sleep meds cause this is becoming an every other day thing atp.

Sometimes I’ll catch glimpses of romance shows or movies that my mom is watching and I’ll just think to myself, ‘is this how straight people who aren’t on the brink of divorce behave? or is this a want to be divorcee directors hopes and dreams?’

People were right about modern music (especially made by small artists) is solely made to have one TikTok grabbing section, and then the rest be boring asf or the same thing over and over and over again. Like, I know people are just trying to get some listeners attention as fast as possible, that doesn’t mean anything for a long term career though when you tease the song for 6 months and make the rest of the song (besides the part you teased) sound awful. 

Does anybody else just wake up and then immediately have an anxiety attack sometimes? …Nope, just me? Okay great. 

I thought someone was trying to follow me home, so I pulled into my aunts driveway instead of going straight home and called her. Only for her to tell me that it’s the cities mayor pretending to be a cop. So now I want him to spontaneously combust cause WHO THE FUCK JUST FOLLOWS SOMEONE HOME?!? It’s even worse cause my car is decorated in a very stereotypical femme fashion, so this perverted mfer saw my girlie ass car and went ‘I’m gonna follow her home’ and actively tried to do so. 
          
          Like I did a whole circle around the block before going to my aunts and mfer followed me the whole god damn time until I pulled into my aunts driveway. To which he just crept past before fucking off in another direction. Go FUCK YOURSELF Mr. Mayor, you cock sucking, jerky chewing, lazy piece of SHIT!

I’ve been going on daily walks for at least 30 minutes a day, and yeah, people were right about it being lowkey therapeutic to just walk down a path in the middle of bum fuck nowhere. 

 I want a bowl of cocoa pebbles so bad right now. Please god let a box of cocoa pebbles suddenly appear in my pantry so that I may partake 

I don’t understand why people just don’t walk away more. Like, you’re in an argument and it’s going in circles and they just keep spewing the same shit no matter what you say? Tell them that they’re a waste of your time, walk away, and GO HOME! Who cares what they say in general or about you after, either ignore them or say some shit about them that’ll reaaaaaaaally have people dogging on them instead of you. 

Sometimes I’ll see people opening those half aluminum-half paper food wrappers, and I suddenly get a painful itch in my teeth and want to claw at my skin down to the bone just thinking about how the paper inside feels. (It feels different than normal paper, I can’t explain it but it just does) Which I feel like just confirms mine and other people’s suspicions about be possibly having autism

Every once in a while I’ll think about the person who almost hit me with their car when I was a kid cause the light changed while I was crossing in the middle of a cross walk. To whoever that was, I hope I didn’t traumatize you too much. I also want you to know that wasn’t the last time I was almost hit by a car lmao.