ASH!!!

someone shoot me pls

hi im alive

IM ACTUALLY DONE WITH THIS FUCKING FRIEND. THEY ALWAYS MAKE THEMSELVES THE VICTIM. LIKE STFU PLS. AND THEN I HAVE TO APOLOGIZE EVEN THOUGH I AM IN THE RIGHT BUT ITS JS TO KEEP OR FRIENDSHIP ALIVE AND MAKE THEM FEEL BETTER.

i became his friend again chat

how tf am i a year clean

how am i 2 hours close to being a year clean..

I hate my friend for not believing my clear BPD symptoms she was like "My brother went to get diagnosed, and he didn't have it turns out he has depression and he acts like u "  DEPRESSION IS ONE OF THE MOST POPULAR FUCKING MISDIAGNOSIS. I have soo many symptoms and the things about BPD is that its not lifelong disorder yk? so like if we find it early it'll be easier!!! i hate being a teenager who got emotionaly and sexually abused which caused me into developing my BPD and no one belives me because im just a teenager!!!

I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse I wanna relapse

how to stop splitting.

Every day i feel like im drowning, No one can hear me under the water. its like every day is every minute im under that water, sometimes people lift me up from the water but then i get pushed back into the water. And it repeats. One day i'll be dead after drowning for too long. (This is not about drowning)