Ash Clark

I feel like no one reads what I write anymore.. I don't know why.. Are my stories not good enough like everyone else?? Should I stop writing?? Feedback would be nice guys..

Sorry to everyone that I havnet been posting I have had the motivation to write and I'm sorry for that. hopefully I will write soon. I don't  know yet though. I hope you all are not mad at me. I live you all talk to you later 

I have some new chapters coming soon.

I hope everyone has had a wonderful Holiday. I hope your day was filled with cheer and love. I have had an amazing day myself. It was great  spending it with the people I love. Have a wonderful night!

Happy holidays everyone. Love you all!!

I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I mean people hate me my family doesn't really accept me... I am on the verge of giving up. Like I am almost at that point again and I might end up in the hospital again but that's if i make it. I'm just so so tired. I might just end it all really soon. I can't live without a certain someone so...

I just feel like ending it all... can I?? I mean a lot of people would be happy if I did... maybe I should,  it would end all the pain and suffering and people would be happy.. I barley have friends. My family hates me ( most of them one family member doesn't) I lost someone I loved and cared about because I pushed them away. WHAT'S THE POINT IN LIVING? 

Yeah my phone is fixed!! I'll try to post now.  Promise 

Okay people so I got my broken phone back and I will try my hardest to update. I don't know  what my update days will be but I will let you all know as soon as i figure it out.

Guys I am not okay. My oldest brother Cody did something bad to me when I was little. I told the cops and he went back to Indiana. A couple weeks ago I found out that he came back as like a run away or something. I live in an apartment and right next to it is a park. Well he is now living in the park. My mom is 100% okay with it and doesn't care. She gives him food and money, and other supplies. He has been in the apartment. I am scared for my life. My second older brother Christian did the exact same thing to me and when my mom and dad finalize the divorce Christian is going to be living with us. I want to die so bad. I can't sleep at night ( Not that I really could to begin with) and I cry myself to sleep every night. I am so scared!! I am freaking out everyday thinking " Holy shit its going to happen again"  I did something bad to myself when I got home the weekend I found out. MY arm was stained with blood. But I am healing! I don't feel safe at all!!  I want my ex- best friend back, but I don't think he would take me back. I mean who would?? I am a mess. With him I felt safe and wanted and needed. If he came back into my life and I could talk to him everyday. I might just not want to end my life. But ugh, I can never get him back!!! FUCK MY LIFE!!! END IT ALL!!