@AshleyMistMalichi
Hi Everyone!
Just a quick, "Hello and Thank You! To everyone who already Follows and have recently Followed my Works Page.
Where ever you are in this Big Beautiful WORLD, I hope you're having a lovely, Morning, Afternoon, or Evening...
Sincerely,
AMM
Love you❤️❤️
Getting ready to soon move again!
Only THIS time, it will be better than it was with the move almost a year ago.
For those of you who have been so patient, I want to say, "Thank You for your consideration during this time.
For those of you waiting for the conclusion of Insensitive, I DO have a couple of updates...
One, I did finally find the missing Chapter that ties the entire book into a neat lil bow.
Number two? The EX last year, had experienced an 'episode' and it had been one SO bad, his (at that time) current roomies, called the police on him and had listed him as: unstable, shoeless, carless; basically looking and behaving 'unkept' as well as being off his meds; and a proven danger to himself and others.
Unfortunately, like what had happened the LAST time I had attempted to update the Book, I hit a hard spiral of unwanted memories and the nightmares caused me to lapse into insomnia once more.
So, the new move is a blessing.
The Autonomy restructure is still ongoing; and for those who know the nuts and bolts of it all, Thank YOU for your continued well wishes and prayers...
And, for those of you that do not, all I can offer is this.
Since I no longer have my phone job, I have been searching for other avenue streams and doing so takes up a lot of my time.
While I am still writing pages of updates, that too takes time.
I WISH i could be/become as good at it as those that can sit, and fully map out then write an entire story...
But, I am not.
AMM
Happy Mother’s Day my Lady, hope you’re having an amazing day!
@-JustCMe- Aww CEE! Thank You for your kind wishes! I had a lovely time and a VERY amazing day! Good company, great food! Today is my Birthday, and it started off with a bang, lol. My Twins called me early this AM and sang me Happy Birthday! I had gotten to speak on the phone with my youngest daughter and he husband yesterday, so it was a very nice early Birthday/Mother's Day gift :) How did your Mom's and your Sister's day go my Gentleman? Hugs, Your Lady T
My Lady, wishing you a happy and very prosperous new year. I haven’t seen any activity from you for a while, my wish is that all is well with you and yours.
@-JustCMe- Hi Cee. Hope you had nice end of the year Holidays... No, you are correct. There were a LOT of things happening in my Life at that time; and in October, I just fell into a deep shock; and the residual of it has yet to leave my person... In July, when I went to visit my youngest and her hubs for the Holiday, I had felt SO FREE! I had written a LOT on my latest 2 Books too, AHFH and NOLY... My 2 1D Ships had sunken in October. Ziam and Larry... After October, this writers FOG was still with me. I tried my best to 'fake it' but even then, things just, sucked. I stayed away from watty; and my emails. I had to (and still do) have to FORCE myself to even answer them. Those 2 devil WATER hurricanes; and the most recent Cali. devil winds, have me in pure disbelief. I've seen videos with pure PROOF, a lot of that crap that's gone down, was MANMADE POLITICAL BS. I weep for our Species, our planet and our *current*raggy Country and our individual states. Stay safe Chingu. T.
Merry Christmas my Lady!
@-JustCMe- Hope yours was all Merry too! Hope you are okay as well... Let me know, are you still at where you used to be, with just your pet? Or, did you get talked into moving back to the state, in its current state, due to being run by 'gruesome?' Who has PROVEN OVER and OVER to be, "The WORST Governor, EVER, in the HISTORY of the USA!" Either way, stay safe My Gentleman Chingu Cee.
My lady, hope all is well with you… ≽^• ˕ • ྀི≼
@-JustCMe- My Gentleman Cee, all is VERY well with me! LOVE the kitty Ceemoji, Thank You Chingu! Now that I am away from the constant causes of my Functional Freezes; and the responses it all lead to, I am doing SO much better! Been taking the necessary time to re up my work Callers list too; and have not been disappointed at all. I even had them returning from 2020! It didn't take a day to build it all; and it took almost 4 years of crazy hours, and LONG days and nights to do so. So, I did NOT expect it so soon, to come rolling back to me! YOU were right on SO many levels, about SO many things too! I Thank you for your well wishes, hopes and encouragements to get back to ALL of it. So, in making the efforts by showing up. Working more, writing more as I do... I am soon dropping a new Chapter of NOLY, and that is exciting, as I found the perfect bridge from AHFH and a 180* plot twist to bring to NOLY as well! Don't you just LOVE it, when things just seem to seam themselves together?! Never mind the hyper enthusiasm, and please excuse it, as I am drinking cups of real Dark Chocolate cocoa to stay awake, as LAST night was full and LOADED with like, OMG O.O STRESS! Those, OMG moments NEVER seemed to stop! Just gotta add, Hurricanes are SO REAL; and so is God. We were blessed to be in safety; and the electric miraculously stayed on, as did our entire area as it was shockingly missed. There were those that were not so fortunate though. And prayers for those people and their families who last night, and early AM, lost so much, and so rapidly. Powerlines were downed; as were elder trees uprooted & a vast amount of homes and other structures were severely damaged, as well as the flood levels soon became highly damaging to homes; businesses, leaving in Tampa, those first alert rescuer's needing rescued first. Somehow this storm had been even worse than the last one had been. I must humbly add, blessed has been my mental, go to key word since August 25... <3 T
Thanks for the dedication on chapter 12 of AHFH, T. I feel bad because I've just been so busy trying to write to read anything. <3<T
@Egaroo4 Hello my lovely E! It is okay. You don't have to feel bad; M' SO happy to read you are back to writin' on your own works. I already told you, I actually wrote, AHFH for you, which is WHY it is ONLY dedicated, to you. I also wrote it, to bring awareness to the issues & outcomes of SO many things; like being a single parent; the challenges it brings; only from a Males POV AND a Females POV. There are pieces of my heart in both books & shards of my own life experiences but again, it's challenging to write them from a M POV. While both Books touch on the different topics covered, it's the seriousness of them are exposed; such as description's of H trafficking as it's not just going on here in these discombobulated States; but the world over, C H trafficking has become a huge form of currency; a way for the bad people of this world to make money off of others skin, sadness; blood; suffering. Be that with the use of drugs * like with Summer in AHFH* or H T or C H T & WE NEED people like Kingston & Bastien, who fight every day for those being used & trafficked. Also, I wrote N O L Y as well as A H F H to help escape & deal with my own issues of a current life sitch. Now that I know about *Functional Freeze Response* the knowledge helps me cope with any outcome of those MANY * years & places prior to 2016 + the consecutive coming to FL years I've been slowly suffocating, by being mentally emotionally & physically used as Narcci food. Due to that mess, now I'm made more aware of those residual dregs that were ignored. With proper knowledge, I AM standing up to it. There have been some better outcomes, than my usual 'go to's' of just running from or ignoring it. I AM actually working on a research paper to learn more about, FFR. Mulling about the Idea from my Son I L how I should start a podcast about *issues Interests & Hobbies (like my BGof Larry, 'cause I know stuff) Just livin' life Luv...N' gettin' there me own way. ;) T> <3 E> :)
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the silent struggle of living in functional freeze response
when living in a functional freeze, you might look together & calm on the outside, but on the inside you’re shutdown, overwhelmed & disconnected
this hidden state is a sneaky survival mechanism, where you operate on autopilot amidst overwhelming stress or years of unresolved trauma
it isn’t your fault! your nervous system starts to shutdown & move into the functional freeze response to protect you from experiencing more stress / trauma
functional freeze will often cause you to be able to perform at work & with your family but then not be able to take care of yourself
you might be in a functional freeze if you’re experiencing:
✨ a sense of detachment or numbness
✨ feeling stuck in life like you’re just going through the motions
✨ shallow breathing or holding your breath often
✨ difficulty making decisions or feeling indecisive
✨ a lack of motivation or feeling aimless
✨ a general sense of apathy towards things you used to enjoy
✨ muscle stiffness or chronic pain
✨ feeling on edge but not knowing why
✨ difficulty getting out of bed
✨ body feels heavy
the good news is you can get out of living in your functional freeze response with somatic exercises
Aww, how CUTE! O.O Color me surprised!
When I actually got a grey Banner, so one of my Stories is now deemed 'eligible' for a submission in the 2024 Watty's.
MY reply..."In the words of the Master Minded and lovable Louis? "Ah, Erm, I feel...Fanks, but NO Fanks Mate."
LOL, JUST reading a FULL page with ALL of those uncomfortable RULES n REGS?
I felt a MASSIVE Panic Attack trying to be coming on!
For those of you still reading ANY of my works; especially my MANY TBC Fic's?
I would sincerely like to, Thank You & let you know, how much I appreciate you ALL, SO very much with being SO patience with me,
when my S A D kicks up & makes me feel, all... the FEAR to do so; & after second guessing myself?
I end up NOT having a prepared one; a lack of any update, as well as feeling guilty for the length of time.
Between my Panic Attacks, my PTSD issues, as well as the ongoing, current negative fam ones?
One day, I told myself? ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
I decided to do some deep dive research, on what could possibly be the root or underlying causes, stemming from my rapidly, daily declining, sense of self & loss of Autonomy.
Which is what's causing these negative feelings...It took a while,
but one day last week,
I FINALLY pinpointed a HUGE chunk of the problem; the situation, and the possibility; THAT THIS, is what has been keeping me in a, Freeze of emotions and other things that make a person, unique in who they are.
But, when you are constantly being gaslit, then LIED to, to YOUR FACE?
How can YOU NOT realize it?
I am & have been locked down into, a 'Functional Freeze'...Since July 2017.
You just eventually, shut down.
Let us just say, in an Alanis Morsette tune, in which I have added some mixed up words to...
"I got one hand in my pocket and the other one is gripping a tight rope."
IF you, or someone you know, is NOT acting like themselves? IT could be, FF.
this is the You Tube 4 it> https://youtube.com/shorts/eFwGkvP5emo?si=BwUE4mQ5Avlmczwe