Ash

wow life is crazy i havent been on here forever. i almost forgot wattpad existed. coming back here is so so insane. miss the good old days when i was on here and life didnt have any struggles. time really flew by. i had this app during some of the biggest events in my life and now im a few months from officially being an adult and have a lot of new experiences, losses, views on the world, and everything. i can't believe it was only a few years ago i found myself on here daily being my chaotic self. feels like a life time ago. how have you all been???

omg guys i live. and im 17 now :000 and im writing a story and actually got more than 2 seconds into it before getting bored :000 wow am i finally learning how to life :000 anyways how are y'all doing

Ay bro @Ashlovescoffee1!, Found this hilarious meme, so funny ,link is down ↓

so this account is lowkey so dead... im still working on the story but slowly so it will take a while. i might make a Pinterest account to post my art on so if i do ill send any of you guys who want to see my current art their :) hope yall have a good day/night/week and i will be back in what will prob be another million years

hey yall, ive been thinking about becoming sort of active again. i have an idea for a series that id like to write. although its alot different than some of my other stories. i recently did a switch from fantasy to mystery and true crime so i became planning to kind of change up my account to reflect my new interest. ill keep up my art book but other than that most of my books will probably be deleted and i will release a teaser on the new books im writing

guess who got put on meds for ADD- i hate ittttt. one of the side effects is that i cannot sleep and it lowkey SUCKS

hi guys, haven't really posted here for a while. how have y'all been?

Hey, do you have discord? Mine is Cloud_of_2023 if you want to friend me

Heyyyy how are you? i miss you - Cloud

i exist
          
          sort of
          
          sadly
          
          
          i feel so numb lately idk why i just havent been as happy and di hav ebeen more stressed and the only reason i can deal with people is because of coffee
          i hate alot about me but i have a friend who is trying to cheer me up and support me but at one point he kept leaving me on open and i had a break down and was convinced he was finally leaving me too and all i did was mess up friendships
          but he is still here and so are a few other people who are keeping me sane... well lets be honest im a little more insane when im around them but a happier insane
          
          i was to just disappear and never talk to anyone again but my friends refuse to let me close in on myself but im just struggling so much to have the motivation to do anything
          i want to see what might become of my life in the future but at the same time i just want to give up
          
          my friends try to help when i tell them some of the thoughts im having or the emotions im feeling but im drained and they are all dealing with there own problems
          im scared they are getting tired of my problems and im one emotional break down or one more panic attack away from another person leaving
          
          it doesnt help that i know if these few people i have leave me know i know im not going to have anyone
          most people in the school dont talk to me, some dont like me, and even if there was a slight chance i wont talk to anyone new because people scare me and i can hardly answer questions in class without my heart speeding up and i cant be in crowds without freaking out
          i had walls built up for safety but then people came into my life that i slowly i felt i could trust and now im more open and some people seem annoyed or stopped trying to deal with me because i opened up
          i dont know what to do anymore