Ashna NotFound

you know its gonna be a good day when it starts with your mom yelling at for the stupidest of reasons

it's so funny to me that my mom's being extra nice to be after realising she fucked up. l
          I just wish she would shut tf up every once in a while.

omfg I forgot im underweight. like severely. apparently ive lost 5 fuckin kgs. 5. bruh. i wanna die. I like being thin ok but I like being healthy more. and its not like I'm a little underweight. no I'm nearly 10kgs underweight. my BMI is fuckin 16.1 which is apparently severe. lool this is so stupid. i really can't catch a fuckin break. my grades are bout to drop like flies so at this point idk man . id just be happy to die. which technically is stupid cause i wanna die for quite some time but it keeps getting worse with time

i got rid of all of my sad depressed stories cause I don't wanna be a attention whore but I know for a fact iam. i just want a hug and to cry until the ache in my heart is gone but idk when it's gonna happen. i mean im going home now so it's gonna way worse now

god I really hate it herw

its a weird sort of satisfaction when you're dreading something that might not even happen but it actually does happen. like you're satisfied that you're right but you're still suffering. and u can't even rant to anyone cause all your friends are having a good time. and on the off chance they're not, u don't wanna ruin their night. welcome to ash's overthinking 101

its kinda invalidating when 2 of your family members openly say that they don't want to sleep with you

yall now those chest tingles that happen when you want to yeet yourself off a cliff. ok that's way too descriptive but you know, u feel like trash. yeah I'm getting way too many of those while talking to my dad

i am one push away from a mental breakdown and i can already tell that this ones gonna be pretty bad. idev what triggered me. like I do know but its not that big of a deal, it was light scolding at best but my minds pretty fucked so I'm just drained now

i really hate my life and its such a pathetic thing to say causeunlike me people have real problems