ria ♡

Dejé de escribir en algún momento de mi vida, o eso creía. A veces encuentro oraciones incompletas en mi correo, en mis notas, en mis cuadernos...
          
          Aunque ya no escriba en este sitio, siempre será parte de mi. Seguino no encuentro un modo de sacar lo que siento y simplemente las palabras fluyen cuando las escribo.
          
          Leí algunas de las cosas que publiqué en el pasado. Debo admitir que me dio vergüenza en un principio, pero después, sentí mucha ternura. La persona que escribió todo fue muchísimo más valiente que la persona que soy hoy, tenía menos miedo y despertaba con un sueño nuevo cada día.
          
          Extraño la persona que fui, pero no quiero rendirme con quien soy hoy. Todo lo que ha pasado durante estos años no lo puedo borrar, pero agradezco que he crecido mucho como persona y he aprendido de a poco a forjar un mejor camino.
          
          Este lugar fue mi felicidad y lugar seguro por mucho tiempo, espero algún día poder regresar y ser ese lugar para alguien más. Lo pensaré y estoy segura de que esta idea rondará mi mente por un tiempo, no quiero que muera completamente esta parte de mi que muy en el fondo me da esperanza.

Dejar ir para dejar llegar...

I want to kiss your sweet lips, 
          To feel them against mine, 
          They look so deliciously sweet, 
          So delectable
          Your delectable, 
          I everyway, 
          Body and in mind.

In your eyes I see questions without answers, 
          and I see answers without questions.
          I see that the impossible is actually possible.
          That there is always something that breaks the 
          Standard Models we have set forth.
          and when our logic is defied, so grandly,
          It isn't sad, it is an opportunity to 
          reevaluate ourselves and learn more.

Let's not fall in love right now, let's wait until we can find peace and happiness, right now is not the righ moment, could you please wait for me?

You write so beautifully. The inside of your mind must be a terrible place.

I don't like this night. I don't wanna be alone. Let's spend this lonely night together. Let's forget everything and get drunk. The night is too long, your answer is too short like a poem. When the sun rises again I'll start to fall asleep. When night comes, without fail this feeling comes to me. I try calling you again in case you feel the same way. I'm sentimental right now. Sing me a lullaby, I wanna fall asleep. The moon says hi to me but I'm not happy to see it today. No one is next to me, my emotions are on low but I wanna go as high as space. I just wanna be a star floating in the sky, then even if I don't do anything I'd shine a light by myself. Like the darkened night, my heart is dark too.  Don't write stupid things because of your emotions. I can't do anything. I can't see anything. Please save me. We can't be happy forever. My reflection in the mirror is so empty, as if there's nothing there. As I face the morning, I realize once again what wakes me up is not you but an alarm bell. I'm an empty shell, a coward without you. It's over, my love. Where are you? Now we are just a memory. I was happy, don't forget me, let's meet again. Good days and sad days, hard days and happy days, now it becomes memories of the past. The me and you of the past are now over. It's like I came back to reality. My reason to live is gone. When I open my eyes in the morning, my heart feels empty. I feel the emptiness, just like I did before I met you. I'll feel less and less as time goes by. I don't regret it, I'm just a bit sad. I don't miss you, I just long for you. There's no smile on my face. Without you, even the air around me is heavy. I walk the same streets we used to walk together. It still rings in my ears, your laughter and the late night phone calls of our love games. I could be listening to your warm voice instead of this sad song. Because I have no place in your reality. My head understands but my heart can't let you go.
          -WINNER.

IT'S OVER
          AFTER A YEAR

Let them tell you that the sunrise is right on your back. 
          That they hold you by the hand because there is no world in which they want to have you away. 
          Let them be stunned by your smile. 
          That your voice is the favorite song. 
          May the days next to you be oasis and little house on the mountain.
          You deserve to be looked after. 
          Do not let them fall altogether but you are wrong. 
          That they heal you when it hurts and when only escueza. 
          That you throw a lifeline whenever you need it. 
          And trigger a whole salvage operation if you feel torn to pieces. 
          That they caress you by the fragile zones. 
          And kiss you where you are most afraid.
          You deserve to feel capable. 
          Because you are valid for all goals. 
          Because obstacles do not go with impossible. 
          No barriers with indestructible. 
          No limits with insurmountable. 
          Not for you.
          You deserve the warmest love. 
          You deserve more than a forest its trees. 
          And a sea your fish. 
          Much more than a flock his sheep. 
          And a city its people.
          I just hope deserve to you.

"It’s okay to love something a little too much, as long as it’s real to you."
          Gerard Way