AssylaKaian1997

In a world that tries it's best to tear us apart, there is always hope for another day. https://www.wattpad.com/story/222520004

KelsaDixon

Hey sweet girl! Just wanted to stop by and see how you were doing.  I know it’s easy for people to forget what other people are going through as the time passes but just wanted you to know I was thinkin about you!! Of course you know, but just a little reminder I’m always here if you ever need to to talk

KelsaDixon

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AssylaKaian1997

@KelsaDixon 
            Thanks so much, that means a lot.
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KelsaDixon

@AssylaKaian1997 Oh my gosh that is the most amazing news!!! Congratulations to everyone, I'm so happy for your family! Rainbow babies are the absolute sweetest. There is nothing you will treasure more <3 I'll be thinking of you and her and the baby, praying everyone stays happy and healthy!
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KelsaDixon

And thank you so much for the follow and adding my story to your reading list  I hope you enjoy it. It’s definitely got a lot of my heartache in the beginning so it may be something that is too hard for you to read right now, or it may be something that you can connect with. Xo

AssylaKaian1997

@KelsaDixon 
            Thank you so much, it's almost been a year now, and we are all getting through it together. It's slow going but it doesn't hurt as bad when we look back at the pictures and remember him. 
            At the funeral it was rough, especially when I had to take my nephew from my sister and calm him down because he was just learning to talk and kept pulling on her sleeve telling her to, 'go get brother.' and crying. She broke down and I held them both.
            Wow that felt good to get out after keeping inside for so long.
            I'm sorry, I don't mean to go on about it.
            I'm sorry for your loss and am glad you are healing well.
            Even after a while, some days the pain just hits you like a truck and you remember everything like it just happened you know.
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KelsaDixon

Yay!! I'm so glad you're enjoying it! I was worried it may be too sad for you right now. Just posted a new chapter btw ;) 
            
            Also, I'm glad to hear you're healing, but if you ever need someone to talk to and don't want to upset your sister, I'm just a message away. I'd be happy to listen and offer any help I can. <3 I'm two years into the healing process and I promise that you will be stronger because of it all. xo
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AssylaKaian1997

@KelsaDixon 
            Loved the story, can't wait for the next update, it was all so beautiful and drew me in, I just couldn't stop reading.
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AssylaKaian1997

Hey guys, so I know it's been a bit since I last updated any of my books, but I've been really stressed recently and have had a lot on my plate.
          I want and need to get this out of my system so that maybe it give me what I need to write more and continue my books.
          So last year on July 13, my three and a half month nephew passed away. He was born almost three months premature, and was doing really good until he stopped breathing in his sleep and the hospital wasn't able to bring him back. I took it hard, and I haven't been as active since then. I had to help support my sister and her two year old, my other nephew for a while.
          Even knowing what I want Ito do, and how I want to continue my books, I just haven't been able to find the inspiration to write it all out despite that I can imagine it all in my head playing out.
          Life has just been really hard since then, but I know that I have to keep moving forward.
          Just give me time, I'm starting to finally write again, and I hope to get Loyal Always finished soon as well as Hidden Shadows.
          I know that life is a bitch and that it's never going to be on anyone's side, so the only thing we can do is try to get past all the hurt and keep moving on with our lives.
          I needed to get this all off my chest and I'm glad I did.

AssylaKaian1997

Thanks so much for that, I'm healing slowly, and so is my sister, I'm so glad for my sister having Aaron because he's helped so much when I couldn't, because she realized that even though she just lost a baby she still had one who needed her just as much as she needed him.
            It's tough, and sometimes it can feel like your whole world is breaking, but the pain can't last forever and healing comes slowly. Thank you so much for your words, that helped more than you know.
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KelsaDixon

Aww I’m so so sorry for your loss  everyone has to heal in their own time, in their own way, but even if your not writing one of your story’s, writing what’s on your heart for yourself is sometimes therapy in and of itself. I lost a baby as well and putting my pain and thoughts on paper helped to ease some of the grief at times when I couldn’t make sense of it in any other way. Thinking of you
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sdoesnthavealife

Could you please check out my story? https://www.wattpad.com/story/192563252-nowhere-left-to-go-book-one Thanks!!!

AssylaKaian1997

@sanukionwatt 
            Also sorry for not replying sooner, I always forget and the app has a hard time syncing up with the site, so I never see these messages until like months later.
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AssylaKaian1997

@sanukionwatt 
            
            I swear I started this but then my library deleted it and then I couldn't remember the name of the book or how I found it.
            I just got in my head just now that I should check here, so thanks cause now I know what it's called, and can start over on this.
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