Hello dear sibling, I would like to thank you first for reading my book and reaching out to me. I would gladly give advice and hopefully it would be helpful.
Whether you have your name written in the Book of Life or Death, the most important thing is that you repented and wholeheartedly willing to serve the Almighty Father without reservations. Getting back to Him does not necessarily mean that you are finally attending masses or anything but to ACTUALLY read and listen to the Word of God (the Bible) and really LIVE with it. Hardships and Challenges in life are indeed difficult under certain reasons but it is undoubtedly part of our lives, which molded us into who we are now. Whether knowing your destination in the afterlife could give you certainties or not, knowing what truly matters is most crucial in achieving great success and happiness in life, since everything in the material world are temporary that includes money, properties, careers, etc. Love is permanent and that is why God is Love Himself for He embodies its truest and deepest meaning. Hatred, Greed, Pride, and Lust are meaningless since it only clouds one's judgement and reason. Only Love can be considered as powerful and unchanging.
~God bless and best of luck my friend...
