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Happy Birthday Aara, you would've turned 20.
          I don't know what to feel about this day, I wanted to write something for you. You deserved that, deserved to be cherished, to be loved, to be important for most of the people because you were an Angel. I never saw anyone who'd do so much for strangers and even when no one did anything for u. I know I may lack the knowledge of you, and... And we really talked so less in the last month but, but I can never trust anyone who would ever say that you were two faced, you just can't be
          Nobody got the time to make up so much false stories and to go around healing people. And for what? What would u gain by doing this? I really can't understand, your haters are idiots. 
          
          I'm actually happy that God called you, this world never deserved someone as precious as you. 
          
          I miss you though, I actually thought we have time and now... Now I really don't know what to feel, I'm scared... It's so scary, one time you were all fine I saw your post of happy pride Month and the next day you di--... You.. You're not here..... I.... It hurts Aara.... 
          
          Please, promise to have a good life wherever you are @aarawynter
          
          I love you <3 my twin sister

I miss u @aarawynter :) I just really miss u so much.......

Wattpad really has a lot of immature people here
          They know how to give others anxiety
          
          Anyways, I'm glad it didn't affect me that much but seriously, if someone picks a fight with you then just don't reply anything they'll be waiting for your response but you won't give that coz maturity is a thing, you know

I'm back again to release my feelings as wattpad seems to have become my personal diary
          
          I don't wanna get depressed again but it seems like I already am, it's such a hellhole. Also, I don't wanna share to anyone because really no one understands how I am feeling rn
          
          I really wish I could just give up.
          
          Old friends, left, or I isolated myself from them
          And I'm too scared to share with anyone new as I will become close to them and then boom, I'll get hurt again
          
          Nothing seems right even if nothing has happened yet
          
          My brain is very complex, I wish I had someone who could go inside of my brain and understand what I think, how I feel... 
          
          It isn't possible though
          
          I'm just going to get hella depressed :)

The more, I live in this earth
          The more, my belief from humanity breaks
          And I hate myself more because it feels like I victimize myself in everything
          I mean, they're also humans, they also have reasons for what they do
          Maybe I did something wrong... 

I wanna seriously leave everything this time
          It tires me, the way people look down on myself, on my issues, my problems. What do I even expect? For everyone, there problems are the biggest but, idk, they make me feel like shit. I don't wanna talk to literally anyone anymore. It's better if they stay away from me, or one day I'll lash out on them. And just because I'm sweet kind of person, that doesn't mean I can't be sour. Bro, you haven't seen my anger yet :) Once I forget my boundaries and self control, people will have opposite impression of mine. Just stay away. Thank you

Thank you for following! ❤️

Your profile pic is the exact same photo I have of Jungkook from the Butter album ✨

I just want to tell u r too good ❤️