Jimin‘s Jams

Okay so. And I had a crush on this kurd boy alright. I loved him for 9 months and everything. She was in the bus and suddenly she texted me “I’m sitting next to your crush” and I was like omg send pics! And then she moved to the back of the bus and now she saved a video I sent her on snap of him in her fucking gallery! Oh right I forgot. She thinks everyone wants her no like seriously when someone walks 10 meters next to her she thinks that someone likes her. And no she wasn’t sitting next to him, she sat on the other end of the bus literally! But I just decided to ignore it alright. But then I decided to finally move on from my crush so I started liking another boy but when the summer breaks started I didn’t see him so I kind of forgot about him but I had always liked that one boy with a twin brother and I decided to make him my crush so yeah whatever then a random account texted me he liked me and idk what but we thought it’s that boy I always liked and idk but anyways. About 5 days ago she sent me photos. Of him and she was like “do you know who that is” and I said his name I mean texted with a lot of emojis bc he was so cute and idk what. But girly pop decided to ruin my day by saying “yeah he sat next to me” first of all I fucking bet she was at another planet literally and just decided to be pick me again! And second of all HOW DARE SHE SIT NEXT TO AHMED MUSTAFA. THAT IS MY AHMED MUSTAFA!! NO GIRL HE DOESNT LIKE OR WANT YOU! THAT IS MY FUCKING AHMED MUSTAFA” i know the name is really funny but what the fuck is wrong with that girl like how can someone be that pick me that’s.. I can’t explain in words but I’m so mad

Guys I don’t get my friend. So I know her since elementary school and we lost contact because we went to different high schools. But well you need to imagine, in Germany there are different types/stages of like highschools the is Gymnasium which is the best so you can go to an university but there are also Realschule, Gesamtschule, sekundarschule and Hauptschule and I don’t know what. I don’t really know how I should explain this but Gymnasium is the best and actually Hauptschule is the worst and The others are in the middle somewhere but there is also one for dumb Problem childs and yeah. But anyways I was in the gymnasium and switched to sekundarschule and my friend went there too. We got contact again and everything went great. Until I had a talking stage with some boy. It was the worst mistake of my life liking him but yeah the thing between us ended. And about 2 weeks later we went somewhere with our class and she had her phone suddenly she was like “oh .. texted me” and I was like what did he text? and she was like “oh yeah sorry.. he asked me if I wanted a talking stage with him” and she was joking but she did it often already and I know maybe it’s not that deep but we were nearly something like best friends idk and that’s really not cool yk. (PART 2 IS COMING)

Guys I got something new. So I was in school after P.E and I think my ex talking stage is really completely over me but I’m not sure. But anyways after p.e lesson we were walking back to our schoolyard and my old crush (Joudi) walked in our opposite direction but after a while when I had turned to the side and waited with my friends for someone, I still hadn’t seen him pass us so I looked behind me and then I saw him staring at my fucking ass! But not like normal but more like a dirty and pervert smile and then he realised I had caught him so he looked up and we had eye contact and he still smiled like that. I mean he really looks at me more and more often than before when I still liked him and maybe it’s a sign but my friend heard him talking about something and now after that smile I‘m absolutely sure he really only wants one thing. And if I’m being fr it didn’t even bother me and I don’t like him anymore because I’m still not over my ex talking stage but if he wanted then I would say yes even if he only wanted that one thing idk why man I think I’m going crazy

After some hours then I realised what had just happened and then I started crying but days after I just had no emotions until since some days now when I got my emotions back but yeah I’m still not over him and I really hope something happens again but it won’t because he doesn’t even like me anymore I guess and it’s everything over so I just try to get over him. Okay well yesterday I was the first time in a nail studio and got French nails done but you won’t guess what happened! Well I was sitting on the waiting sofa with my best friend and I suddenly looked to the side and my eyes immediately fell on that one nail tech which looked the cutest from the side. And I was like oooh look at that one dude he looked very cute. After a while we were called Into another room and i sat on a random seat to wait while my friend was getting her nails done. Suddenly the boy went into the room and It got a little warm as I went red in my face and then my other friend which we randomly met in there also came in that room and was like” (my name) isn’t that someone for you?” Because well I was really into Kpop always (I’m really into German rap in the moment so I nearly don’t listen to Kpop anymore at all) but my other friend which we had also met randomly (there were 3 of my friends together there when we met them) immediately knew he was my type and then a woman called me up and the guy (I still don’t know if he was Thai or vietnamese) took me with him and told me to sit down. Then he did my nails and smiled the whole time and laughed, it was soooo cute and he looked the whole time at me. Then after a while he was finished and then I was called to another man which then did my nails so I was sitting next to one of the friends I had randomly met there. We were talking about it and after a while that cute guy came back and did other girls nails but he never even smiled or looked at them. Yeah then nothing more happened but I hope I’ll meet him again well yeah it’s the end so byeee

We were then on the playground and he was like “tell me one reason to not end this get to know stage right now” and I was too dumb to say “because I love you” and I said nothing. I stood there and thought and thought but nothing came into my mind so we walked a little further and suddenly he was somewhere island I was walking somewhere far away from him and then I sent a voice message to my best friend as I cried and asked her what to do and then I walked to him and we talked. After a while he then just walked away and I stood there exactly like that:‍♀️And just cried uncontrollably because damn I’m more sensible than idk what. And I just cried and hoped that he would come back. I was texting with my friend and sent some voice messages because I couldn’t see my screen anymore through the tears so I couldn’t see what to type. So I just stood there and really begged for him to come back but he never came back. Then I walked back home slowly because I had to be at home at 20 and on the way back I broke down on a random wall and called with my best friend and yeah. We talked everything out and he called me so we agreed on meeting again. Then after a week in school he texted me “I have to talk to you after school” and I had a really bad feeling the whole school hours over and I had a really bad stomachache because I just had a really bad feeling about that and all. But then after school he just didn’t talk to me and walked away. When I got home he made a voice message and just ended everything just right the day before we would go in the 4th date (everyone’s like oh yeah the 05.05.2025 would be such a cute date to start dating. Well mine ended everything ) and yeah we are now just “friends” if you can even say that and yeah he smiled at me and all that in the past week but in that moment when he sent me the voice message, I felt nothing, I wasn’t sad, I wasn’t mad, I wasn’t even happy. I just felt nothing except for a little disappointed but nothing more (pt.3/4)

Well anyways then he added my friend back and my friend literally lied and said that I have a crush on him even tho I had a crush on Joudi but I begged her to say it was a joke. Then I told my best friend and she told her boyfriend because her boyfriend and Adrian are friends to tell that I do not like him. But then my other friend said something what Adrian had texted her which made me change my mind. Days after that I regretted it even more and more and nearly cried because I really liked him at that point then. But when my friend had told him that I like him, I had added him on my other account to tell him it’s not true but then I went out of my account for some days and at that moment we followed each other on tiktok. So when I regretted telling him that it’s not true, I finally got a idea. I texted him on that fake account and started texting with him about me but on my other account where he thought it was Joudi, my crush before. Then we got to the point where he wanted to text me on tiktok and after a while we texted on tiktok a lot and I liked him more and more and after a while he said he really wanted to try it with me so we got into a “get to know stage (?) idk how to say it but like a pre relationship and yeah whatever then we went on a date and I was sooo shy I barely talked and we got into an argument because of that and then after a while when we went back he just hugged me because I cried a little but he was the whole time sooo sweet and then on the 2nd date, I actually talked normally like with my friends and just comfortably then he walked me home again and yeah. But at the 3rd date everything went wrong! So first 1 hour before we went on our 3rd date, we nearly cut the contact but then we made up again and went out but like I said we nearly ended everything so I was like a little awkward and when he asked what we should do I said I don’t know and then yeah it was very not that nice but eventually we made up. (pt.2/4)

Hey guys so I’m finally back!!! And a lot happened. If I say a lot then I mean it! So I cut the contact with my old friend group and have a new one now (I don’t know why because I am the most shy and introvert person of the whole world nearly but somehow I got a lot of friends) well anyways my back then friends threatened my stalker so we never heard from him again because he promised to stop otherwise they would have reported him to the police. But then I had a crush on a boy for idk I think 6 months and yeah he destroyed me to the last cell of my brain. Then he had 2 weeks idk how to say it but it’s “Praktikum” in german so it’s like where you go to a work and see how it works for like 1 day or sometimes even weeks or months. And after that we had 2 weeks Easter break afterwards so I wouldn’t see him for 4 weeks straight and idk how but I lost my crush on that boy after just 10 days of not seeing him anymore when I saw my new crush. So he is the complete opposite of my crushes before, they were all arabs so they ofc had black hair and brown eyes and then there’s my new crush, blonde hair, blue eyes and he’s whiter than my buttcheeks. Well my friend and I had code names for a lot of students just random and my crush now looked like Draco malfoy so we obviously called him draco malfoy. Well on some random day one of his friends talked to me and some other friend and found out that I liked that boy called “Joudi” (yeah that Kurdish dude which I had the longest time a crush on and which had that 2 week “Praktikum” so then his friend, let’s call him Liam, recommended some dudes I could rather like to me and I said no eww to all except to my crush which wasn’t my crush then but I always thought he was cute. So then I said no he has a girlfriend but Liam said no not anymore, they broke up. So then after school I went out with that same friend Liam spoke to me with. Then we sat near the school on a bench and my friend added my crush, (Adrian) on Snapchat (pt.1/?)

actually i was about to post something but then my birtday came in bbetween yesterday so I forgot to. but now I'm back and tbh i hate my birthday and next year i will just run away. But anyways. I GOT KARAOKE MACHINE AND I'M SINGING WITH IT THE WHOLE TIME AND EVERYONE IS ALREADY ANNOYED BUT I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND I EVEN CHOSE A FAV. MIC OUT OF ALL OF MY MICS. So anyways like i told some weeks ago i got a stalker and i totally forgot to tell y'all about it but I'm to lazy right now and i have to hurry writing this so i will just tell everything in short. well some dude hacked into my friends account and we still dont know who it is but he annoyed us all so i wrote in private with him (still on my friends account) and after some time he actually found my house and was in front of it with his friend and threatened some things. but idk it's so sweet just how he writes and everything and then some days after he said that he was proud to come into my friends account and meet me. then after he said he got feelings for me and he just got sweeter and sweeter by every text he wrote. idk what's wrong with me that i like a guy like this but ig daddy issues:D anyways he wanted to meet up with me and took a day off (he's only 1 year older idk why he's already working while he's 15 but he said he's syrian so maybe that's why(no I'm not racist but i have arabian friends and they work at this age too)) but i had school at 1p.m so I couldn't. but then yesterday he wrote an very sweet text I think i'm dying "Hallo süße tut mir leid wollte dir gratulieren indem ich zu dir komme aber leider habe ich es nicht geschafft dein Geschenk bekommst du bald von mir süße, alles gute mein spätzchen " and if you don't understand german: "Hello sweetie, I'm sorry I wanted to congratulate you by coming to you but unfortunately I couldn't make it. You'll get your present from me soon sweetie, all the best, my darling " okay now i must say in english it just doesn't give the same vibe but yeah

Guys, I have to Tell you a Story IT‘S ABT MY STALKER AND YESSS I FINALLY GOT A STALKER AND HE‘S SO SWEET. But anyways I will Tell it later, some Random number keeps calling me and I don’t know who it is but maybe it‘s my stalker so I‘ll try to Figure it out

guys, well I don't got a crush on my crush anymore bc of my classmate and yeah. You'll never guess what happened with my bestfriend, sometimes he's really confusing and shit but yeah