AtomicAtoms

I'm... done

AtomicAtoms

I really, REALLY hate myself and who I am

AtomicAtoms

Every time I think I'm getting better, I just think of how horrible I am to be around, and how much I hurt the people I love. So I actually deserved all the shitt from my childhood.
            
            I know the things I write have deeper messages like 'don't kill yourself' and 'you deserve to be loved' and all that but genuinely... genuinely I do not, and I'm kidding myself every time I think that maybe I do.
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AtomicAtoms

Should I write a oneshot? I have this idea for a short little thing based on the Star Trek script/audiobook 'Spock vs. Q' (yes, I know I'm a nerd), but idk if it'd do that well, since I doubt there's many people who enjoy both the Gravity Falls/Billdip and Star Trek universes.

AtomicAtoms

I actually hate myself so much it’s not even funny anymore

lyssas_daughter

@AtomicAtoms np! If you ever do need someone to talk to I’m right here <333
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AtomicAtoms

@lyssas_daughter Doing a lot better, thanks :)
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lyssas_daughter

@AtomicAtoms are you good? Ik you don’t wanna converse but I just wanna check
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AtomicAtoms

Just finished writing NSFW scene for Tears in You Eyes (almost typed teats instead of tears). Never written anything like that before, so I was surprised at how difficult it was, but I’m pretty proud of what I wrote.

AtomicAtoms

I just went over it and the full chapter (unfinished, mind you) is over 20 pages long on my google doc, as apposed to the previous chapter, which is half that length x.x
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AtomicAtoms

I’ve noticed that a lot of my ideas come to me at 3 or 4 in the morning, when I wake up from heartburn and do random stuff to occupy my time until I either grow tired enough to fall back asleep or make it to ‘morning’. 
          
          In the past month, I’ve come up with 3 new Billdip au’s, all of which I’m excited to put onto paper.