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Story will be posted here when I get permission to use someone's art, but for now I'll be updating it on Ao3 whenever I have time
https://archiveofourown.org/works/90525606/chapters/240718056
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Mafuyo_E
Hiii, sorry if this is hard to understand—I'm using a translator to write this because I'm a native Spanish speaker (xd). I just wanted to say that I absolutely love your story *Tears in Your Eyes*; I cried over what happened to my poor Bill (╯︵╰,). I hope you keep writing it—I really love your writing style. I found you on AO3, which is how I was able to read it in Spanish. I'm sorry I'm not expressing myself very well; my words feel a bit too plain for what I want to convey. Take care, and I hope things are going well for you offline (◕ᴗ◕✿).
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I'm... done
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I really, REALLY hate myself and who I am
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Every time I think I'm getting better, I just think of how horrible I am to be around, and how much I hurt the people I love. So I actually deserved all the shitt from my childhood.
I know the things I write have deeper messages like 'don't kill yourself' and 'you deserve to be loved' and all that but genuinely... genuinely I do not, and I'm kidding myself every time I think that maybe I do.
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Should I write a oneshot? I have this idea for a short little thing based on the Star Trek script/audiobook 'Spock vs. Q' (yes, I know I'm a nerd), but idk if it'd do that well, since I doubt there's many people who enjoy both the Gravity Falls/Billdip and Star Trek universes.
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Depression and SI suck, I’m sorry for those like me who have to deal with that crap
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@Franciscoxz_ Gotta say, I’m really enjoying the book so far, and I admire your boldness to comment on other people’s profiles to hype up your story (I could never lol). Keep it up! <3
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I actually hate myself so much it’s not even funny anymore
lyssas_daughter
@AtomicAtoms np! If you ever do need someone to talk to I’m right here <333
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@lyssas_daughter Doing a lot better, thanks :)
lyssas_daughter
@AtomicAtoms are you good? Ik you don’t wanna converse but I just wanna check
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Just finished writing NSFW scene for Tears in You Eyes (almost typed teats instead of tears). Never written anything like that before, so I was surprised at how difficult it was, but I’m pretty proud of what I wrote.
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I just went over it and the full chapter (unfinished, mind you) is over 20 pages long on my google doc, as apposed to the previous chapter, which is half that length x.x
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I’ve noticed that a lot of my ideas come to me at 3 or 4 in the morning, when I wake up from heartburn and do random stuff to occupy my time until I either grow tired enough to fall back asleep or make it to ‘morning’.
In the past month, I’ve come up with 3 new Billdip au’s, all of which I’m excited to put onto paper.