I hate seeing you like this. I don't like to see anyone like this. I lost one of my close friends a few months ago, and it hurt me so bad that I couldn't do anything to help him...he didn't talk to me about anything, and I guess he felt like he couldn't trust m enough, and it kills me to think about it. My heart was so broken, and I don't want to lose anyone else. I know we didn't have the chance to get to know each other, but I feel like we could have been great friends...but if you go now, we won't have the chance to know if that's true. Look, I know it seems so hard to keep going right now, but god is only testing you, and I know he believes you can do this. Everything is going to get so much better, believe me. I have gone through so much the past thirteen years of my life and they were so hard to get through. So many times I wished I could have ended my life and I felt like it was all over, but I didn't do it because I still believed that it could get better. After all these years of waiting and hoping...everything has truly gotten better. It has been so much better. I'm so glad I didn't pick up my knife the night I had decided to do it. I had it where I could see it...I thought hard about it. I thought about my friends, my family, everyone who would miss me...my school, my life in the future...I thought hard about it and I believed things would get better and that I had too much going for me to give up then. I'm still going and I believe you can too. Darling, I promise things can get so much better, you just gotta believe me. You don't want to just throw away everything you've worked for. There are so many people who do and will care for you. Please, don't throw it all away, stay with us. We love you for you.
