TheRussianIcePixie! lol.

hi hiiiii

I finally have some free time to be online again! As soon as I can I'm gonna try and pump out those two books. The little one and gardening. 
          
          And to anyone who see this you get that mother fucking 
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So ello every one I got some god news I'm finally get a me sized binky! It was custom made by one of my friends if yall would like a picture I'll post one just let know. And I have a question. Would yall like a picture/journal book for my garden that I have? Aside from documenting how the plants are doing I could also put some tips in it that would be helpful. 

Im an idiot sandwich  

Another dive at trying to regress failed and now I'm more stressed then ever. Anyone have any suggestions? It's hard when I have to keep my self together enough to keep everyone around me together by either being therapist or verbal some times physical punching bag. I barely eat once a day any more and I'm not sure what to do. I'm not sure if it's just the stress making me repulsed or something else. I won't know until I just have this gone. Until I can atleast brake away for a more than a damn minute. But nothing works much anymore. Please any suggestions?

So I said I was going to be back- but then summer school hit me like a truck and I have it for two months for credit recovery and oh my friend died! And well now we're getting foreclosed on! Thats just so fooken dandy! And on top on this all for some reason evertime  I try and regress by my self it feels wrong like I'm supposed to be the one taking care of someone or someone's supposed to be with me to help me. I can't even regress by myself anymore and I don't have any caregiver! I've always been the caregiver and and regressed by myself and maybe conversed with other littles. This whole thing just has me so fucked up. And I cant even cope in one of the healthiest happiest ways I know! Any time I try I just get so frustrated and angry! And Wattpad is one of the few places I can let this out without seeming needy because most of you know what I mean. Most of you get what I'm going through. And I've always and will always be grateful for that.

*slides in on a table with one leg bent and my hand on it* It's Britney bitxh I look pretty good for dead bitxh! lol anyways guess who's back and ready to cause some chaos!! Rise my heathens and come to me. Come forth and together we reign supreme on this mortal realm. Come forth and and together we will- ok I really just want some chaos somewhere please! Ooo maybe its time to call kinky club back together again.

HahahAA that feeliNG when you're dad says you begged you're step sibling to let you have you're way with you're rapist!! But like he also said he'll sign he's rights away at the same time? Like all the years of physiological, mental, verbal, and slightly physical abuse means absolutely nothing now because he was doing to it to get get him on his side in the first place! LikE wow WhaT a WonderFul feeling. What a WonErfUl liFe. And he wonders why I blame him mostly for me ending up at a fUCkICKING MENTAL HOSPITAL! but then he blames mom. Oh okay perfect sense. 

Daddy issues really be hitting bad today my hoeskies broskies and non binary cup of joeskies. I have no idea what the last three words are supposed to mean either but it rhymes

Spare serotoninspare serotonin please!