AwkwardPuppy

I heard through the grapevine, that my father wants to apologize to me and have me meet his fiancé who is dying of lung cancer. I've thought for years now, about him apologizing for everything and airing out our past and the damage he caused me. But now that he is hoping to reach out and have me listen to it, I find that I don't care. I don't need his apology, not out of the anger of a hurt daughter. It just doesn't matter to me anymore, he can be sorry I accept that he might genuinely understand what he did wrong. But that's for him and it makes no difference to me. its weird.

My therapist and I are working on a lot of my issues, officially I've been diagnosed with PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder, and i'm being officially screened for ADHD and ASD with severe social anxiety. I'm 29 years old and im both relieved and frustrated by the whole thing, Im also scared of the treatment process for the social anxiety in specific. Im not really sure why i'm even posting this besides the fact that my friend and my husband both are probably tired of me talking about it and I don't want to tell my family about it until i have all the answers. I just wish people had helped me earlier in life instead of just dismissing me as strange

Thank you for reading my books 

Happy Birthday, big bother. Its been fours year and I still find myself thinking for a moment I can call you and talk to you again. I still miss you, I hope you are no longer in pain and in heaven.

Does anyone else always seem to want to read fics about a character no one else is interested in? I always seem to do thar and I kind of hate it.

Wow wat a intro twin  gezz scare everyone away y don't u humm :p lol jk love u