JemimaIsAPunkRocker

Hi everyone,
          
          Okay I need to vent, so tonight me and bf talked about something. In September he's going to a university that's two hours out of the city, and we won't see each other nearly as much. So we'll be long distance.
          I don't have many friends. I will get lonely and he knows that. He's worried about that, actually, and brought up the idea of taking a break from our relationship while he's at university. Because he doesn't want me to be lonely and miserable. (He's not saying we are going to break up then, he was just telling me everything that had been on his mind.) Long distance will be hard for me, because I am super attached to him. But I'm willing to do anything to make it work, and he told me he is, too. Love isn't supposed to be easy, and every relationship has difficult times. 
          So I don't know what's gonna happen in September. I just know it's gonna be difficult while he's away. And I couldn't ever go back to thinking of him as just a friend, we've been through too much together. I want to be his wife.
          Anyway, it's seven months away, but I've been crying about it for hours and now I'm in bed bawling about it.

I posted a new poetry book! I've only published 2 poems so far, but I'll publish more in the coming weeks.

Merry Christmas!!!

I have never been so confused about how I feel in my life 

Guys me and my bf are seeing Megadeth on their farewell tour in February!!! I'm so excited even though it's 2 months away! 

I added another poem to my poetry book if anyone has read anything from that or is interested. I was in a sad poetry mood and figured I'd upload another one.

Hey everyone,
          
          I know I haven't been on here much lately. Truthfully, I'm struggling mental health wise right now. I relapsed with self- harm, and having more trouble taking care of myself than usual, can't bring myself to do things I enjoy as easily as I should be able to. I'm not doing super well right now. 
          
          I told my boyfriend that I cut, and he wasn't mad, more disappointed. We've been together for a year and four months now, and he's well aware that I struggle with depression. Now though, I'm at the point where I'm starting to worry that he'll actually realize how crazy and fucked up I am, because I haven't been this depressed in a while. He's super understanding, and I probably am silly for worrying about that, but I can't help it. For a long time I thought I was unlovable, and now those feelings are starting to come back. And I just don't want to ruin our relationship because of my insecurity, like I've done in the past. 
          
          Alright, that's the end of my venting session. I just needed somewhere to talk about my problems. 

You know what's funny? When your mother has you, signing up for not only 18 years of taking care of you, but a whole lifetime of taking care of you, because that's what a mother should do, then gets mad at you for needing her help. ‍

Hey everyone!
          
          It's been a while since I've been on here. I got a new phone a few months ago and got logged out. 
          
          I kinda need advice, and to vent I guess. The last few weeks, I've been feeling kinda down, I don't know exactly why. My life is pretty good right now, all things considered. I have a job, my boyfriend is amazing. My home life isn't great, it's okay I guess, but not great. Nothing new there. I have gained weight though, because I've been eating too much. And really been neglecting self care.
          
          I also haven't been tapping into my creative side as much as I should (e.g writing, playing bass). That goes with self care I guess though. But yeah, I've just been feeling kinda down and not like myself lately. Maybe I should go back to therapy, I'm really not sure, though. 
          
          Anyway, it's nice to be back on Wattpad :))

Guys I need advice
          My boyfriend is going away to south america for spring break, and for 3 or 4 days, he isn't going to have internet. I can get really bad separation anxiety, and going that long without hearing from him is gonna be tough for me. We haven't ever gone a day without talking to each other since we've been together. Does anyone have any advice as to how to deal with separation anxiety?