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@Taetae_roarr heyo need to have a talk with u if u r free then msg me btw I'm havi's sister, I'll get straight to the point purvi and her eonnie told meh its better for mah kid to move on from u why? They say u r a wrong person to fall in luv with, but cant decide without hearing the other side ryt? 

Heheh penguin I'm scared that you won't ever see these messages, but there's this trust I placed on you, i trust that you would really come back no matter what, and it's maybe a little silly that I'm not doubting for even a second that you won't come back? Whatever it is I trust and love you penguin, i hope to come back as a person who won't ever hurt you well ahemm you know except making mosquitoes jobless (⁠~⁠‾⁠▿⁠‾⁠)⁠~ especially because they did my work(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) baddies ahh wait hufff hufff I'll keep aside this ice cream -_-  i thought it would help me to stop crying but did this huff penguin someone asked me a few personal questions but I couldn't answer them, i really don't have the answers to them so I let that person take over my accounts till I come back as a better person well till i can control my emotions better and figure something out, it feels too wrong to be without you, even the dreams of you everyday can't help me not to miss you but it's better than nothing, I miss you so much Penguin 

Penguin I made so many promises to you and hehe i never made such promises especially because I don't break them and I know I won't break my promises to you it's really crazy though i didn't think I'd love so much, huff hufffffff there's something I want to tell you but you're not here so all I could do is Tell you when we meet again 

i kept talking to noah about you, i realised I remembered everything with you i realised how much i cherished those memories, but little words triggered me during our arguments making me realise i still acted like a kid who can't control my anger but those words of mine hurt me too why did I say them? I don't want to act that way anymore penguin, huff hufff hufff!!! Seeing you flustered makes me laugh in admirance penguin and i continue to do it to see you all red hehe(⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) cutie penguin, penguin I need to tell you a secret, something I realised but I don't know what to do with it? I kept aside that secret not caring for it because your happiness was more important, penguin that day I came back to heal you I ignored my heartbreak and wanted to show you my love like i always did, I wanted you happy and back to yourself, why did I do it? It made me realise that I loved you almost as much i loved dad and heh he's on a level no one ever managed to reach half so how penguin?how did you do it?

I don't know if i regret searching for teacher when she suddenly stopped texting me and finding you and teacher talking, how you told her that you would never come back, Noah calmed me down maybe but he couldn't see how my tears continued falling, how i wanted to leave because that day i truly felt like everything was over but penguin it hurt me a lot more to know you were hurt i wanted to be Lucy while comforting you so that you wouldn't know my emotions but i ended up telling you about my future cause i couldn't be Lucy, my mind was blank penguin but my heart focused on only my love for you and heal you, that day i wanted to be more than the girl who loves you romantically I wanted to love you in every way, i wanted to stay with you even as a friend first, I wanted to see you smile and be happy, I don't know what happened with me? You know how much my brother means to me Penguin there was a time when he told me a simple but hurtful thing it wasn't much but i never expected him to say it and it took me a week to message him again, I took that long to message him even when I came back just for him it made him disappointed in himself, for a minute i thought maybe I wouldn't come back at all after seeing you say that but I threw aside that feeling of heartbreak penguin, i really felt my heart paining as much as it would pain if dad was mad at me, he was the only one I would go back to within mins if i made him angry by me being angry, but I did that after realising you got angry and left school in anger, I couldn't directly come to you but I atleast wanted to know you were safe, i stayed awake for the first time exception being the second proposal of course, i wondered why I stayed awake the entire night worrying for your safety?

I'm missing you everyday even if i dream of you penguin
          All the things remind me of you and that makes me teary but i know we will meet again
          I'm waiting for that Penguin
          And if we don't meet here anymore it's okay
          I'll still find you in real world
          I want to be the same fugu you know
          I'm changing and it's making me scared
          I don't want to face you like this heheh
           i guess I'm regretting now
          Regretting all the decisions to stay away
          Would it have been better if i confronted teacher? I don't know
          I thought for a minute how it would have been if i actually indeed left instead of coming back to wish you good morning everyday then i wouldn't have known about anything and anything could have happened i stayed and found out about it right? I don't regret the pain i got i regret hurting you i regret that cut on your palm i regret those tears of yours ahhh penguin
           

I wished to see you smile 
          We were miles away from each other
          But i felt like you were here with me
          No argument made me let go of your hand 
          Nothing made me love you less
          There were times i cried 
          Not out of sadness but worry
          I want to tell you countless things
          Yet i end up telling you the same things
          You were the first one to make my heart beat fast and you will be the only one
          Moments with you were full of happiness
          I didn't fall in love when you told me your feelings at first
          But there was a feeling I couldn't understand 
          It felt right 
          You made me fall in love slowly
          With every conversation you made me love and admire more 
          Your grumpiness shyness and everything were cute
          The things we went through and overcame together 
          Everytime you were there when i felt insecure 
          You were there in my happy times and sad times
          You managed to find a way to always come back to me
          With every effort you made it made me want to give effort to stay too 
          I saw your love for her even if i saw your love for me and i didn't let you come to me fully
          But now I'm left with the memories of you and me hehe
          Well that makes me smile so randomly that people might look at me weirdly 
          I appreciate every moment with you and every bit of love you gave me
          I think that's what matters right? 
          The good moments are to be cherished and I'll do that

I am sorry for leaving suddenly without telling you penguin i really want to stay but i couldn't, things haven't been looking good since the start of the year and there were problems in real life i tried to go but the argument with avni Happened and then grandmom so i tried to stay as much as I can to see you happy and then leave, i really tried hard but i am not an adult I'll try to come back at the month you told me and then i don't know what will happen nor when i can come back penguin it might take two or six years but after that I'm never leaving you like this, but remember I'll really try my best to come back when you call out for me after a few months and stay even for a day do take care of yourself and always be happy penguin

Penguin! Whatever happens I'll always be with you no matter what! I hope things are better for you now! I'll always keep my promise to you no matter what happens and will find my way back to you hmm? Please take care of yourself!  I'll be stronger for us! No one's words will affect me anymore and we will give this time! Just take rest now! Everything has been overwhelming for you

Many things happened and I guess it can't bring the old us back anymore, neither my old self nor yours nor anyone's.
          
          But i guess we shouldn't let this affect our relationships in real life, maybe we should still be the same person for them, do wishes exist penguin? If they do! Well god doesn't grant them all the time, because I guess he believes we can do it by ourselves, if God exists then karma does too! We can't wish for something to turn all good and alive when it got rotten, it's meant to be lost even when we wish for God to turn it all good, it's based on a chain of actions and deeds i guess! Still it helps a little to wish for something when we feel helpless and we are no way related to it right? It comes true sometimes, your grandmom is an amazing lady, the ultimate power lady! Her good deeds and her family's love will bring her back as strong as she was, and sometimes a wish doesn't hurt! Some wishes do get fulfilled so I'll wish for your family's wellbeing! I don't have any wishes for myself and neither am I an adult to be able to do something to comfort you now, I am feeling helpless for the first time but that's okay penguin! You have your family and Noah, I am glad because of that!