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Like it’s not even an “if” anymore at this point. Whenever the universe decides to physically bring Dylan into my life, I’m never going to admit that there’s things wrong with me... like I’m never going to tell him about my anxiety or my depression or my constant insecurities that make me wish I could just purify my mind with bleach and holy water; god why do I try so hard to make friends when all they do is never want to talk to me or want anything to do with me?
Why does society in this damn century have to do this to people? “Oh you’re not good enough to be friends with...” “you make me feel uncomfortable and I’m not giving you an explanation as to what you did or why” “oh I’m gonna block you and not give you a reason and let you feel what you deserve”
God just please someone help me, someone come into my life right now and try to fix me. I’m desperate at this point, fucking desperate.