Good morning, How is everyone?
I just wanted to give a little update about my writing schedule. Lately, I've been struggling to get back into writing or maybe it's more accurate to say that I haven't felt inspired to write lately, even though I already have new plot ideas for JoongDunk and PondDunk.
To be honest, there are times when I want to stop writing. But at the same time, writing is one of the few ways I have left to show my support for the boys. I no longer post on YouTube or TikTok, I rarely edit photos for Instagram and I've slowly stopped joining trends as much as before.
It's not because I've lost interest in them. It's because I've become exhausted by some of the behaviors I constantly see within the fandom, from fighting with haters dragging our boys name to policing fellow fans over every little thing.
I keep telling myself to focus less on those accounts, to mute, block or simply skipped. But as time goes on, it feels like there are more and more of them, making it harder to avoid the negativity.
As someone who has always been vocal about JoongDunk and often shares my own thoughts and interpretations, it's discouraging that whenever I write something, some people immediately label me as a hater or someone secretly wishing harm on the boys.
The truth is, I don't feel the need to prove anything. They can claim themselves as real fans whatever they want but I've been here for almost four years and it's not as easy as some people think. I could leave this app anytime I want. I could stop writing too. But because I genuinely love Dunk and appreciate his partnership with Joong, I continue to stay despite everything. Still, there are days when it becomes frustrating and discouraging.
I don't claim I love them equally because I've always been honest about being biased toward my son, Dunk. But that doesn't mean I don't respect Joong. I respect him just as much.
