My grandmother died this morning.
I think I'll be writing a lot as a result. I've been gone for a long time because I haven't been able to write, and I'm still not totally fine. Yes, it's been years, and it's shameful. I apologize. But she's gone, and I won't recover from this for a while.
Dear God, I ask you to love and protect her with all your might.
Dear God, show her your bright light.
Dear God, when I weeped that death would be merciful, my dear God, I was not ready for it to be so soon.
Dear God, thank you for showing her mercy.
Dear God, love her like you love her father.
Be compassionate and patient with her, my Lord, for no one ever was. And, oh, my Lord, keep her by your side until I can join her.
Afnan.