AverageAvenger

Don't you just hate it when your parents makes you feel shitty as fuq in like 37 unique ways, and then comes back in asking if you're friends again like they did no wrong, knowing you can't say no or decline without them getting furious again?
          
          Well I hate it but oh well- 
          *dabs in dead inside*

I.
          
          Am.
          
          Frickin. 
          
          HYPED!!!
          
          SHURI IS BACK *INSET NICK FURY WORD HERE*!!
          
          
          I have been keyboardsmashing, screaming and literally bothered my whole family since the Black Panther trailer released! And OML does it look good! I seriously cannot WAIT till this movie releases! I don't think I've EVER been this excited for a movie!

Sorry for the vent incoming below. O hope you'll forgive me.

I know I keep promising that I'll post soon, but I never really do. I'll make no promises I can't hold now. I'm only gonna tell the truth.
          
          I've been having a really hard time. And I'm not asking you to feel sad for me, because I will be alright at some point. But I recently lost someone really close to me, and I'm barely functioning without them. I'm trying my best, but even small things like having to close a specific door at night, or looking at a certain chair can cause me to almost break down, and the second I turn of the light at night, I just feel empty and cold. I try to do my best to socialize, but whenever I'm around other people/friends, it just feels so much worse for some reason.
          
          Summer vacation feels super weird for me, as it ruins the scheme my life is basically build on, and when I finally get a scheme for the vacation in my head, it's time to go back to the old one.
          
          I've also been having trouble with my head, causing me to be unable to concentrate or do anything. Music seems to make it better, but the second I stop the music or pull of the headset, it seems to get worse. 
          
          So, for those reasons I might be going inactive for a little bit of time. I'll still be reading stories, commenting stuff, and perhaps try to write, but I can't promise anything right now. I will not be canceling the book though. I would never do that.
          
          My deepest apology to everyone I've let down or disappointed, but I truly hope you can forgive me

Today, it is officially a year since I watched a Marvel movie for the first time. Captain America; The First Avenger to be precise. And god, I don't regret it one bit. Time goes by so fast! I can't believe it's already been a year! And yet, somehow, I feel like I've been part of this fan world/community forever! I really feel like I belong here, way more than I do in real life. Here, everyone accepts people for who they are, and all have their love for Marvel in common. I just want to thank everyone, the whole community, for accepting me into this chaotic family with such welcoming arms, that I finally feel like I found somewhere I belong. Thank you so much for that.

So, my last post was about my genrer flying out the window. Hehe... Well, I've been trying to figure out my gender for SO long now, trying to figure out things like 'am I a girl?' 'Or a boy?' 'maybe I'm non-binary?' But none of those really seemed to quite explain me, so I figured that perhaps I was genderfluid. And for a while that seemed right for me. But I started feeling like maybe it wasn't. So I've been trying to figure my gender out for quite a while now. And I think that maybe Agender is what suits me. I'm still not sure, because I'm not sure if 'They/Them' pronouns are exactly me, since I think My pronouns are 'He/She/They', with a preference for 'They/Them' pronouns. I'm still not sure, but I think that this is me.
          
          Sorry for the rant, but I felt like I needed to tell someone ^-^

The fuq is my gender? I think it flew out the window and now I can't seem to figure sh!t out anymore. heLP-

HAPPY PRIDE Y'ALL! I swear to god, this month has already given me so much inspiration, and I'll try to post at least twice this month! Sorry for the wait!

Chapter 4 is officially out! I'm sorry I said I was going to post it 2 days ago, but I had some posting trouble cuz my wifi was being annoying, but ANYWAY it's out, and once again thank you so SO much @suki_chaos for proofreading it. I'll do my best to  get more regular with posting. But school and life is really trying to.murder me right now, and I'm just trying to hold on to the last living peices of me
          
          (Which is my raging Marvel obsession and my current hyperfixation on Heartstopper. The rest is more or less dead). 
          
          Anyways, I am SO sorry (again) that it took so long.to get posted, but here it is, I hope you enjoy it, and I will try to do better.

Binge read the whole Heartstopper series yesterday after I finished the show in need of more Heartstopper content, and oh mah gaaawd I need moreeeeeeeeeeee!
          
          Also, Chapter 4 later today :D
          I'm gonna try to get back on track with writing again, but just as I started writing again, I sprained my finger at Taekwondo practice, and now it's taped to my other finger, which makes me really slow at writing anything. My finger's doing better tho, so I'll be back on track soon!