Do you ever get embarrassing memories in your head that make you cringe and then you remember you're in front of someone so you gotta lock in and act as if everything is fine while in actuality you're dying inside from secondhand embarrassment from your past...🗿like I remembered I drew my crushes name + mine with a heart and when I went to grab it he seen it and asked why is his name on my notebook cover... 😭 like I wanna bang my head on concrete from that memory😭😭 and then that one time my other crush called my face round straight to me...🗿 I didn't understand it at first since I was like 10 and stupid but at that time I literally looked at him with absolute disgust and started hating him... ong I wanted to punch him! My instincts as a woman literally took over that day! Like I made sure to always avoid him and make sure to keep away from him like he was a disease.🗿